Posts tagged ‘unwanted child’

April 30, 2014


ImageCarmella Elizabeth Pumphrey Barber wants me dead for nothing, she alway got in my face and told me anybody do anything against her and make her mad she told me she will retaliate but when her husband Nelson Reed Barber always did cheat on her with other women at the same time he always went on trips with the other women while he did purchase a lot of clothes for those women and I am not responsible for what really did happen in 1956 when I was born at Privadence Hospital in Chicago, IL and Carmella Barber and her own siblings did tell me they do not have people in their family with ALBINISM AND THAT IS AN INHERITED GENETIC CONDITION BY BIRTH AND FAMILY. SOMETHING IS SERIOUSLY WRONG SOMEWHERE, DID THAT WOMEN TAKE ME AWAY FROM MY BIOLOGICAL MOTHER. WHY DO CARMELLA BARBER REALLY HATE ME FAR TOO MUCH, ESPECIALLY WHEN I WAS BORN AN INNOCENT CHILD I WAS NOT DIFFERENT THAN NO OTHER CHILD WHO WAS BORN INNOCENT, THIS WHOLE FAMILY POSSES A REAL SERIOUS THREAT TO ME AND MY CHILDREN’S AND FAMILY SAFETY, THIS FAMILY WAS FAR WORST THAN A SERIOUS CONFLICT AND THAT IS ALL I EVER SAW, THAT IS HOW I WAS ALWAYS TREATED BY THEM BLACK RACIST SO-CALLED FAMILY ? I was not ever accepted in this family, the people treated me like an outcast and an out sider. They should not have forced me to dye my hair brown and wear brown hair wigs. Carmella Barber gave me these 3 wigs in 2010, she did not tell me the reason why she gave me the brown hair wigs and she suddenly stopped talking to me and she cut off communication with me. the family people do not have me listed with the family people at all, it is like I was never even born, the people did targeted me for several years and the people always called me racist derogatory names, the people called ALBINO, THE WHITE B, YELLOW B, MOSTLY ALBINO AND WHITE B WORD. IN NOVEMBER 2010 ON THANKS GIVING DAY, she knew I was coming from the far N side of the city way in advanced before that day came. I called her telephone before I left my home she did give me the ok to come over, and when I came with in 8 blocks of her address, she told me to go back home with the Thanks Giving Dinner after I came all the way from the far other side of the city I and my family went back home for our safety and she was never right with me, but she don’t talk to me, this is not nothing new. I don’t have to wear this my true hair color is blonde and I am very proud to wear my hair blonde

September 2, 2013


Imagemyself Charlene and sons  Alexander & Vincent 001 - CopyI am not no crazy person like the so-called parents called me they were the ones who always did physical, emotion, mental and psychologically abused me for 57 years of my life the so-called family removed themselves from me since birth, they both denied me and they turned their backs on me, they did torture me for decades and I should not have to be ashamed of myself born with albinism, and forced to wear a brown hair wigs and dye my hair brown because the family people kept teasing me and picking on me because I was born different they injured me that way and they exploited me for many years and they nearly killed my son for nothing because they did target both of my children and they always targeted me first several years before I had my children and when I was only a little girl a teen ager I was not the type who was in a relationship with males I was in school trying to complete my education and for a strange reason that abuse and the racist derogatory name callings followed me even in the high schools and I still did not bother no darn body I was not no trouble maker. SOMEBODY TELL ME HOW DID A BLACK WOMEN GET ON A CTA L TRAIN IN CHICAGO, IL ,SOMEBODY I DID NOT EVEN KNOW AT ALL HOW DID SHE KNOW MY NAME WAS CH, SHE ASKED ME WAS MY NAME CH I DID NOT ANSWER HER AT FIRST BUT WHEN SHE ME DO YOU HAV A SISTER NAME D I TOLD HER YES I WAS REALLY RELUCTANT I DID NOT UNDERSTAND HOW DID SHE KNOW MY NAME WHEN I NEVER SAW THE WOMEN BEFORE NO I DID NOT, THIS FAMILY EXPLOITED ME VERY BADLY, I CAN NOT GET MY BENEFITS I BEEN TAKEN TO THE WRONG AND THEY ARE STILL TARGETING ME AND THEY ARE TARGETING MY CHILDREN, THEY HINDERED MY GETTING APPROVED FOR SSI AND MEDICAID AND I AM NOT WORKING, HOW CAN I MOVE ON WITH MY OWN LIFE AND GET PASS THEM PEOPLE WHEN I DON’T HAVE NOT ONE SINGLE PERSON HERE IN CHICAGO, IL EVEN SUPPORTIVE OF ME,?
THE FAMILY PEOPLE ARE VERY NARCISSISTIC PEOPLE DO ANYBODY KNOW SOMETHING ABOUT THEM KIND AND I DID MOVE OUT OF STATE FOR THE FIRST TIME IN THE 90s but things did not change because the family people did not leave me alone, and they did not leave my children alone and they don’t want me with my kids. I was only telling the truth because I do not want nothing to happen to me, they restricted my freedom and they took away my human rights and dignity those people do not respect no law authorities not when it comes to me no they do not. the counseling help is not free don’t think I didn’t try I did try the people are standing in my way I am not in their way, and nobody here do not want to help me.

May 24, 2013


myself Charlene and sons  Alexander & Vincent 001 - CopyI don’t appreciate Carmella E Barber and Nelson R Barber taking me to their family at all I really wish they did not do me like that I think they should have left me.
They should have let someone else have me, because I am God’s child and I am a person who got feelings, and if they had done the right thing and gave me a second chance of life with a family who may have had a possible future for me, I believe I may not have been bothered with no inside enemies, and other people who are stupid enough to help them, I am not dumb and I’m not stupid and I am certainly not crazy. they so called parents always did called me CRAZY, they always threatened to take me to a school counselor, a psychiatrist to find if I’m CRAZY OR NOT, they said it they find out I am CRAZY THEY WILL PUT ME IN A MENTAL INSTITUTION, AND AN AUDY HOME FOR BAD AND GIRLS, THAT WAS NOT FAIR TO ME AT ALL. Carmella and Nelson did not do their daughters and sons like they picked and they chosen me,
because both of the parents did not want me in their family from the beginning, THEN WHY DO THE ENTIRE FAMILY PEOPLE REALLY DO HATE MY GUTS PERSONALLY, AND THE FAMILY PEOPLE REALLY HATE MY SON Alexander and MY SON Vincent, I was told my name is on their house, I did not sign no papers, I did not see no documentation of that, because nobody did not show me nothing at all, I do not no the situation to that, If my name is on that house, I want my name off that house I don’t want nothing to do with the people at all and I want to really left alone altogether, I did not benefit being here in this family, I suffered in shame and I did suffer in silenced, and over 50 years of nightmares and BS.

December 23, 2012

People Really Need To Understand That Child Abuse Do Happen To Innocent Children

We were at our grandmother’s home on the mother side of the family and I asked her for a glass of milk and she put an object it was a feen-o-ment pill in it and I looked under the glass and it was there, I told her I’m not going to drink that stuff, Now what if I had dranked that tanted milk, used the bathroom on myself in Nelson Barber’s car because of what Carmella Barber’s mother done, Nelson would have killed me because of what somebody else did to me, I WAS NOT SAFE IN THIS FAMILY, I gave that crap back to her; I am so glad I gave it back to the grandmother, Tyrone Barber tried to force sour kool aid that was unsweetened down my throat,he threatened to whoop me with a belt I told him if he don’t leave me alone I was going to tell Nelson and Muff on him. they spat in my face, they spat in my hair, they forced me to dye my hair brown and they forced me to wear brown wigs for several years, I was not going to dye my hair black because I wanted to be myself and then one day I used COPPER TONE TAN product on my skin trying to fit this damn cursed family and THIS FAMILY STILL REJECTS ME AND THEY WILL NEVER LEAVE ME ALONE AND THEY WILL NOT BACK OFF AT ALL AND THIS FAMILY WILL NEVER LEAVE MY CHILDREN ALONE AT ALL AND THEM PEOPLE IN THIS FAMILY WILL NEVER BACK OFF BOTH OF MY CHILDREN AND THEY NEVER WANTED NONE OF MY CHILDREN IN THIS FAMILY FROM THE DAY I HAD MY KID THEY JUST SIMPLY DON’T WANT ME AND MY KIDS IN THIS DAMN FAMILY AT ALL AND HIDE BEHIND THE CHURCH.
I gotten hurt being played with like a toy and an object and they always did treated me like I AM AN ALBINO COCK ROACH AND A WHITE RAT and they treated my children like they are COCK ROACHES AND RATS TOO and Clara Pumphrey she really always did hate my gut as if I did something to her no I did not do a damn thing to her at all. and she got a set up on me she hates me really just that much and I really do wish she didn’t invite me in her house like that she soaked the chicken and the potatoes in an enormous amount of salt,Clara did that on purpose I did not eat that Shit it was poison. and several years later.before I left the hospital with my newborn babies somebody swiched breakfast food on me at the hospital, I ordered regular food but they switched the food to oatmeal on me and I did not order no oatmeal and something was put in the oatmeal I did not eat that I thought something may be wrong with the oatmeal;. somebody in this family didn’t want me with my babies at all.

June 18, 2012


Biology servers us right all it takes is a man and a female and it takes two to tangle,then why both the parents who both denied me at birth had no kind of love for me at all. I really do not know if they are really my parents or not and why did they torture me for several years for nothing and for nothing I didn’t do to any of them people;  I started kindergarten class in 1961 and they interrupted my stay in kindergarten school and I was not allowed to complete school, and I was nearly 3 years behind in grade school and that was not my fault either and there was a plan to keep me in
school untill I reach age 28 by the time I got out of school, I am so glad it did’t happen that way because these people in this family hated me to the point to where everybody in the family was able to go to school and work and get paid without problems,  I was the one who they picked on. they blamed me for things that the grown adults did before I even thought of being born and I could have died before I was born and what the hell did I have to do with the way I was born and why did them people bring me in this family when they never did want nothing to do with me from the beginning,  all the siblings are dark tan and brown skin and I am the only one in this family who has an ivory white skin and blonde hair and  I really don’t know if they are really my parents or not and why did Carmella Barber pick on me for nothing I did to her and her people pick on me and call me all kinds of racist and derogatory names and dancing eyes and all I ever heard from them family people was Charlene is an ALBINO THIS AND AN ALBINO THAT, Carmella the women who I thought was my nother she did not tell me that girls get their periods every month, she waited until after it happened to me it was wrong that was her responsible to tell me, the people in this family don’t tell me nothing because they don’t want me to know a damn thing just be a dumb bell because they didn’t want me at all and I can tell that. and  Girls should be told about the monthly period or explain it in a way that they can understand so they won’t get shamed and embarrassed and picked on forever and a life time of pure hell for deeds they didn’t do;  them people in this family always told me to dye that SHIT BLACK AND I DYED MY HAIR BROWN FOR SEVERAL YEARS AND I WAS FORCED TO WEAR BROWN WIGS AND I DID MY VERY BEST TO FIT IN THIS DAMN KIND OF FAMILY AND Carmella Barber always hated me because she never wanted me for her child and she isolated me and her sister Clara Pumphrey always controlled me behind my back and she is very dangerously sneaky against me and all of them treated me like a child and they always did meddle in all of my personal business, they did get my business behind my back and they meddled in all of my afairs and all of them people pose a serious threat to my safety and they pose a serious threat to my children’s personal safety and them people man handled me and they man handled my son Alexander so bad to the degree and point where them people damn near killed him in July-28-2008 and what the hell did a man Sherman get in my son Alexander’s face and ask him is he keeping his nose clean look at all the other people in this family they not keeping their nose clean and all them people do is talk about me and my children and pick on me and my kids because them people did not want me in this family well I didn’t tell the so called mother and father to bring me to this family I didn’t just walk in their family that is not fair to me and that is not fair to my children.  It was very wrong for all those grown adults who didn’t want me take me home and they robbed me of my innocence and they robbed me of my dignity and they robbed my children of their persona dignity too.  They way them people always acted towards me and the way they act towards my children they don’t want me to live at all and they don’t want both of my children to live at all either, then why they keep picking on me and why they keep picking on my children all they want to see is blood well a punk hit me in my face and gave me a nose bleeding I was wearing eye glasses he could have put my eyes out for nothing I did, he told me I was adopted  them people pose a serious threat to my personal safety and they pose a serious threat to my children’s personal safety A GUN AND A CANE WAITING. and why did people put bloody chicken bones in my door way and under my window when I was paying rent at 8921 N 91st Street in Milwaukee WI and when I relocated from that address in 2001, less than one month them people suddenly start putting citations on me with a vehicle that I never did operate and I never did drive the Van at all. all of them people did that to me on purpose and they really did do that deliberately and all them people did mary me off right behind my back and for several years them people always treated me like I was lacking in intelligence and like I did not know no better. This don”t make no damn sense at all;  I got taken to a family by people who really never wanted me bring me into a situation that is very dangerous, wrong and very unfair to me and my children; I didn’t really deserve that at all and nobody bothered to explain nothing to me at all  for several years and for that damn length of time and not one single person didn’t even bother to ask no kind of questions of what is the problem and what did I or what did Charlene do if anything at all.  and it is only right,  Hey I am not wrong at all, that is criminal torture and that causes mental abuse and a lot of disstress and heart problems and stress, and STRESS REALLY DO KILL. ESPECIALLY  IT’S NOT MY FAUL AND THE FAMILY DID ABANDONED ME FOR DECADES NOW. I DIDN’T NEED THIS FAMILY FOR MY GUARDIAN THEY DON’T CARE NOTHING ABOUT ME AT ALL AND I AND MY CHILDREN DON’T NEED THESE FAMILY PEOPLE FOR THEIR GUARDIAN EITHER THEM PEOPLE IN THIS DON’T GIVE A DAMN ABOUT MY CHILDREN EITHER. ALL OF THAT IS CAUSED BY VERY HATEFUL, VERY EVIL,MEAN,VERY HOSTILE AND VERY VERY CRUEL PEOPLE, IT IS VERY WRONG FROM THE VERY BEGINNING, TO BLAME AND PICK ON CHILDREN, ESPECIALLY GROWN ADULTS, YOU DON’T BLAME THE CHILD AND YOU DON’T BEAT UP ON THE CHILD, DON’T BEAT THE CHILDREN UP.

March 24, 2012



I didn’t ask to be born here although  I had a right to just like all other babies and I was born an innocent baby just like the rest of the babies; and just because I was born with a genetic condition which is inherited by birth, that was not my fault from the very beginning, I could have died before I was even born like all the other babies,I didn’t even know I was in the world yet; I am not responsible for having albinism and I was NOT THIS FAMILY’S CURSE,THEY JUST DIDN’T WANT ME IN THEIR FAMILY AT ALL; I’m not dumb and I’m not stupid, then why do Carmella Barber who was supposed be a mother to me. SHE HATES ME SO MUCH and I didn’t do anything to her and she always blamed and fault me for her husband and her mother in law for hating her because her mother in law thought she was an albino and I was born with this genetic condition which I was not responsible for.THEY DEHUMANIZED ME from the very start and for nothing that I done to any of them peope FOR NOTHING; SHE told me her mother in law tried to get her killed because of ME that was not my fault;  They didn’t have to take me to their family,Them people should not have taken me to their family at all,THEY SHOULD HAVE LEFT ME BEHIND AND LET ME ALONE; I didn’t pick these people and what do Clara Pumphrey got against me personally,I didn’t do nothing to Clara at all; when she invited me over to her home, she deliberately soaked the chicken and potatoes in an enormous amount of SALT and I didn’t eat that garbage no way, SHE FED ME LIKE A RAT ON PURPOSE I didn’t do nothing to her;this happened late July 1976 shortly right after  I JUST GRADUATED from a Chicago public high school in JUNE 1976.then Clara  asked me in front of a women neighbor of hers, Charlene do you think I am much better than your mother and father and do I like her better then my parents, when I didn’t tell her what she wanted to hear she gotten real angry,nasty and ballistic with me. and she picked a bad fight and an argument with me in her home;Clara never even tried to help me get a paid job of any and Clara is the one who asked me while I was a littlre girl only age 15,Charlene are you going to bend over and let somebody get it so you can HAVE A BABY THAT LOOKS LIKE YOU and she never gave me a time of day;SHE HATES MY GUTS a so called sibling Patricia Barber Matcalf REALLY HATED MY GUTS and she made the father pick up a broom in my face,he nearly hit me in my face with the BLUE BROOM STICK when I was only a little girl age 12 and age 16 he held the broom in my face 4 years later and he told me to take my glasses off because he did not want get caught he was holding the broom stick like a person holding the baseball bat ready to slam me in my face with the broom and Patricia was very quiet untill Nelson walked in the front door,Patricia started to cry and I did see him snatch the broom from behind the kitchen door and the mother was at her paid job the man could have killed me for nothing I done; he did not ask me any questions he was supposed to asked me and give me a chance to explaim it. He didn’t do that and while he terrified the hell out of me,Patricia suddenly gotten real quiet, Patricia was listening to see what was happening to me in my bedroom, Nelson told me next he will KNOCK ME BLACK, I am really wondering why do a whole entire family of people hate my guts for nothing and why nobody never did try to keep me safe in this family and keep me out of harms way but instead every thing was my fault and every thing my Shit. You don’t never ever blame a child no matter who they are and no matter what they got, children are people too and they do have human rights. they violated me from my child hood and things did not get no better for me instead things gotten much more worst, they always treated me like a slow and a retarded child and they CALLED ME CRAZY FOR NOTHING I DONE. even while I am a grown adult and STILL CALL ME CRAZY,BUT LOOK HOW I WAS TREATED. ; I started school at age 5 and they taken me out of school and I went back at age 7 years old and I had to learn how to read and write but them people did not teach me the abc and the 123 s and I had to learn my primary crayon colors and then I had to learn how to spell my own name and I ended up over 3 years behind in school because I didn’t have no proper family back up and they didn’t really care anything about me at all and that was not my fault at all and when I tried to get a real paid job,somebody always stood in my way and I always had bad breaks from the start I was not supported by this family and while I was a youth I expressed that I wanted to work so that I can get paid for working and I  had every right to work and to get paid to work; and if you can’t work then how are you going to pay  your rent,put food on your table,buy your own clothes and shoes and other personal thing for your self and pay your medical bill, and other vital things YOU CAN’T LIVE ON THIN AIR we all need to have something to live on. and when I wanted to work the mother wouldn’t let me work,but all the other kids who worked gotten paid in the summer youth programs and I thought it was good for children to get a supported paid job.especially for those who want to work and support themselves.

September 1976, the so called parents put me out of the home for nothing I done and I was doing house cleaning and Ronald and Patricia was not helping me,I was the only one working and the man launged towards me and he tried to hit again and he called me a yellow bitch I dropped every thing and I left the house for my own personal safety and the so called parents put me out of their home and I didn’t have no paid job and I didn’t have no other personal income and money of my own,they put me on the streets of Chicago,Illinois and I was much too decent for that.and the other sister and her husband had taken me over to grandmother’s home on the mother’s side of the family because I didn’t have no where to go and I never did run with too many people because I need room to escape;our grandmother had taken my bags of clothes and personal belongings and she took me in because I had no where to go and she said Charlene at least you are not out of doors; and that was to save me for my protection and while I was still age 15 years old the mother was cooking on the stove and told me Charlene every women needs her own kitchen and her own bath room.I was too young to date anybody at all.I really feel that everybody just wanted to rush me out of the home and out of the family and that is not treating me like a biological relative at all,NO IT’S NOT; I bonded and I trusted these people and now I do really HATE they took me to this family because I got hurt by the set up FOR NOTHING. THAT IS WRONG, THAT,WAS NOT FAIR TO ME FROM THE START. and what about the time when Patricia called me to so called invite only my children to her son birthday party,she had an excuse,she hated me from the start every since child hood, she said I know that you are busy and I can under,she really didn’t want me there in her apartment and to see what was going on; I am my children’s mother,Alexander and Vincent are my kid, they are not no body else kids. THEM PEOPLE NEVER DID HAVE NO KIND OF MERCY FOR ME AT ALL AND THEY NEVER HAD NO LOVE FOR ME AND MY KIDS AT ALL. THIS IS A CRYING SHAME.


this is nothing but unprovoked abuse and unjustified punishment from the start,then why no one never even bothered to tell me why and not one single person even bothered to tell me the truth and I didn’t deserve to be rejected,blamed and punished for me being born with albinism and what about when I was born an innocent baby like all other babies well the father turned his back on me and he was not emotionally available for me to the point to where I ended up looking for DADDY and my children’s father is a daddy figure by more than 30 years my age and that was because I needed LOVE NOT HATRED; they just punished me and they watched me suffer for the deeds that I did not do. I was not wanted by this family at all; then why was I treated very differently and cruely by the family and every thing is my S from start and was picked on for several years and they made fun of me and they treated my children the same way too, and my son Alexander  was so man handled by them people ,they nearly killed him and I had to take my son Vincent from a program because his files were missing,he was not support that way and that was my son fault  and that was not my fault either.I didn’t work there. and he didn’t either; they picked on him too and his files were missing from a day program, there was a safety concern for all 3 of us. and for several years the gossip about me was so serious to the point to where it has caused me great reputational harm and to the point to when I want to communicate and work with other people I am greatly ignored to where a lot of people don’t seem to care to understand and to listen to what I am trying to explain. Every body treated me like a retarded child and a little girl and every body all up in my personal business and all up in my personal life . they don’t even accept me as one of their own relative and I can see that. I can tell, I am not no domb person, I’m not like that and I was abused so badly I had night mares, I even had a low self esteem because of the derogatory and racist name calling that hurted me and for years they called me that, well that was not my fault, I was born with Albinism and that is an inherited genetic condiction and that is not my fault at all, and some of them people said that is not in the family and that’s not my fault either; I really do wish that the people who never wanted me in the first place just leave me alone altogether and just leave my kids alone all every body did was just use me and my children and they always did just walk all over me and my children and them people never had no love for me no way.that because I was notthing to them people and my children are not nothing to them people either and what they think of me, them people think the same way about my kid ,they don’t have any kind of love for my children because my children are nothing to them people. I am wondering why when I needed to be removed from the home for my own protection and my safety why no body came to remove me from the that family that was not right and that is not fair to me. I gotten blamed,abandoned,punished and bullied and the people on Carmella Barber the mother side of the family,they never taken the time with me and the people on Nelson the father side of the family, they never taken the time with me either; It was not my fault and it was not right for them people to just use me for their excuse. I never even lived a normal life. How can anybody have a normal child hood,adult hood and future, with my freedom being very restricted. and I did go to a medical front office training school program and that was sabotaged on me too,things got all changed around. I did lose the SSI income in September 1997 and I was not able to ever get back on it no matter what. and I came back to Chicago Illinois in spring 2003 and I did apply for a medicaid card and they never did give any. and I did apply again in 2011 the letter came back,it said I was not eligible for any,cash assistance,SNAP food stamps and no medical card at all and I don’t even work because I am very sick right now and I have health issues and I need help and no one is willing to help me out; It is a darn crying shame I don’t have a family that I can trust, my health is being neglected I did a lot of volunteer work and unpaid work I tried to help the community in Milwaukee,WI the best way that I could but I should have been help too many years ago and I gave selflessly far too much of my time to others and for others but I am wondering can anybody volunteer their time to help me out please I AM CRYING OUT FOR HELP can anybody please help me out and it is a crying shame because I had no steady income since I lost my suppmental income in September 1997 and the hatred against me really did put me at a total lost and I nearly lost one of my children and the parent don’t talk to me and the siblings don’t want nothing to do with me either, that is the whole family. I don’t feel really confortable with them no way because they never did approve of me from the beginning and so it is best for me to just stay out of their way. it is really rough on me and this is not too good. I really do need to get a break and a make over. I was born in a seriously dysfunctional family where some people with problems that need to be addressed and corrected even before I was born; this problem have gotten me into a world of trouble with some of them people and also I have been having problems from my grandmother’s former husband, John McCoy’s grandchildren from the McCoy family and his grandson Ralph James, Rochelle Saymore and Lauraine Gordan are Ralph H James aunts these people are not related to us by blood at all. I was a young adult age 20 when my grandmother told me about an incident at the time I was only just a 5 year old baby girl; my grandmother Carmella McCoy was baby sitting me for my parents. Barbara McCoy James had several young babies of her own,including Ralph James, both women left the home there was only just babies neglected and left behind and there was no adult supervision of the babies and there was no one there at all. I was the oldest at that time,I didn’t know anything about it. there was a new born baby boy about a month old named Markham James, The McCoy people keep blaming me for all of the adult responsibiities. the child was jumped all over and as a result the child died.
everybody said why didn’t Charlene stop everybody from jumping all over him at that time. They are still rentlessly angry at me for this. those two women left the home to get a drink.and they were gone for long hours. I am really tire of paying for something that was not my fault from the begining. that was the adult responsibilities and I am wondering why do they keep blamming me for this; this is not fair to my family and I at at. It is very to dangerous to leave small children unsupervised and home alone. Also I want to make another point, They are still rentlessly angry at me for this. those two women left the home to get a drink.and they were gone for long hours. I am really tire of paying for something that was not my fault from the begining. that was the adult responsibilities and I am wondering why do they keep blamming me for this; this is not fair to my family and I at at. It is very to dangerous to leave small children unsupervised and home alone. Also IThey are still rentlessly angry at me for this. those two women left the home to get a drink.and they were gone for long hours. I am really tire of paying for something that was not my fault from the begining. that was the adult responsibilities and I am wondering why do they keep blamming me for this; this is not fair to my family and I at at. It is very to dangerous to leave small children unsupervised and home alone. Also I want to make another point, July the summer of 1967, I was just only 11 years old, while I was playung with friends in the neighborhood a husky boy ran up to me and he hit me in my face with his fist and gae me a nose bleeding; I was wearing eye glasses and if he broke my glasses he would have put my eyes out. He said I was adopted. and when I was age 12 Nelson picked up a brook stick on me he was about to beat me with the broom stick and when I was 15 years of age he slapped me in my left eye while I was trying to explain something to him I heard a PULP sound and I saw star lights in my eyes I was so scared for my life I thought I was about to die and I had to put a cold towel over my eye because I didn’t want my eyes to swell and then I ran and said Yo MaMa, I ran under the bed and he beat me in my face, the man could have killed me for nothing. And when I was 16 years old the so-call sibling rivalry Patricia she was quiet she was not even crying about nothing at all; but she waited untill her father walked in the front room door and then I heard her she did suddenly start to cry to Nelson and I saw him rush in the kitchen and he snatched a broom stick from behind the kitchen door. and I can tell Patricia always hated me from the start, she never did accept me for a sister at all; . I am not domb I’m not stupid. and I do know that every body think everything is all my S and every body think I am lacking in intelligence. and what about the time when I tried to talk to Patricia she told me Charlene shut up with your mental instituted self and that was really uncalled for and they don’t want me to communicate with other people.I got a right to talk to other people,I am a person too just like everybody else,I got a right to my difference too and I do know better; I am not an ignorant person. I”m NOT like that.. Because of this I am now at a personal lost and is deliverately being financially disadvantaged. and where I am living I am having trouble getting a medicaid card of any kind.and I also feel that when Itry to get a job, I have problems either I don’t hear from a company or I am let go and on a short notice.and also in 2006 ,I had a caregiver job and in July 2006 the IRS sent me a notice informing me that someone filed a 1040 form ending December 31-2001 bearing my social security number on it.and they picked up my children on the form and they was the head of household. and I did not do that to myself
and where I am living I am having trouble getting a medicaid card of any kind.and I also feel that when Itry to get a job, I have problems either I don’t hear from a company or I am let go and on a short notice.and also in 2006 ,I had a caregiver job and in July 2006 the IRS sent me a notice informing me that someone filed a 1040 form ending December 31-2001 bearing my social security number on it.and they picked up my children on the form and they was the head of household. and I did not do that to myself
. When my son Alexander was in Warren Park 6700 N Damen Ave, he mysteriously gotten away from here on July 28,2008 and ended up in a hospital and he was not looking so good at all. He was not eating, not drinking any fluids, his teet was clenched (jaws is jammed). He would not talk to me at all, and his eyes was rolled bck to his head, I did see that. he was in Illinois Masonic Hospital and e was floating between 17 different hospitals and nursing homes and treated like trash. as a result of that; there were bruises, scars and holes poked in his legs I did not do that to my own son. that happened when he was suddenly in someone else’s place and care. he was not at my home when all of this happened to him.and not no one even talk to me about it; my son had to be put on life support and a feeding tube. I will never forget all of the pure hatred and hell them people put me and my kids through over the years, they blamed me since I was only a 5 year old baby girl and for grown people responsibilities. and there are very jealous and racist blacks in the family.

I did not forget while I was being abused in that home; I was a little girl, a growing youth and a teenager, Tyrone Barber  used to sneak up behind me and touch me in an inappropriate manner he was wrong for doing that and he was not supposed to touch me and squeeze my personal breast; he called my breast knobs,I felt very uncomfortable because it was very wrong he didn’t even apologize for that and later years he was arrested for pedophilia and registered with Illinois state.
I know because I been put through pure hell in this family and I was never wanted from birth; the father denied me and the mother denied me as their child that was not fair to me at all I am a person too, I have feelings like everybody else do my children and I don’t appriciate being treated like an object with no feelings and I don’t appriciate them people in this family feeding me and my children like a rat. We are people too, I don’t care what we are to them people they are not no better then me nor my children and I don’t appreciate being BULLIED by a family who I did not pick and choose to be taken too and I was born an innocent baby and my children were born innocent babies like all the rest of the babies too. I can see that I have my difference too and I had a right to my difference and this family never even thought enough of me to respect my rights to be different no matter how different I was and they don’t have no respect for my children just because they are my children and they look like me and their father. THAT IS TOO MUCH HATRED AGAINST ME AND MY CHILDREN FOR NOTHING. no one is perfect; IS EVERYBODY ELSE KEEPING THEIR NOSE CLEAN?

a family who only treats me like an outcast and an outsider, I been called racist derogatory names like albino, dye that sht black,dancing eyes,yellow gal,white girl,yellow bitch and white bitches too and yes by black people but it got started from the family first, I am a black women of color I didn’t deserve no abuse; I GOT  HURT BEING DICTATED TO AND I DIDN’T NEED TO BE CONTROLLED,I am not a criminal; there is nothing wrong with me I am not like that. I am really sick of the siege.