Posts tagged ‘unloved child’

December 23, 2012

People Really Need To Understand That Child Abuse Do Happen To Innocent Children

We were at our grandmother’s home on the mother side of the family and I asked her for a glass of milk and she put an object it was a feen-o-ment pill in it and I looked under the glass and it was there, I told her I’m not going to drink that stuff, Now what if I had dranked that tanted milk, used the bathroom on myself in Nelson Barber’s car because of what Carmella Barber’s mother done, Nelson would have killed me because of what somebody else did to me, I WAS NOT SAFE IN THIS FAMILY, I gave that crap back to her; I am so glad I gave it back to the grandmother, Tyrone Barber tried to force sour kool aid that was unsweetened down my throat,he threatened to whoop me with a belt I told him if he don’t leave me alone I was going to tell Nelson and Muff on him. they spat in my face, they spat in my hair, they forced me to dye my hair brown and they forced me to wear brown wigs for several years, I was not going to dye my hair black because I wanted to be myself and then one day I used COPPER TONE TAN product on my skin trying to fit this damn cursed family and THIS FAMILY STILL REJECTS ME AND THEY WILL NEVER LEAVE ME ALONE AND THEY WILL NOT BACK OFF AT ALL AND THIS FAMILY WILL NEVER LEAVE MY CHILDREN ALONE AT ALL AND THEM PEOPLE IN THIS FAMILY WILL NEVER BACK OFF BOTH OF MY CHILDREN AND THEY NEVER WANTED NONE OF MY CHILDREN IN THIS FAMILY FROM THE DAY I HAD MY KID THEY JUST SIMPLY DON’T WANT ME AND MY KIDS IN THIS DAMN FAMILY AT ALL AND HIDE BEHIND THE CHURCH.
I gotten hurt being played with like a toy and an object and they always did treated me like I AM AN ALBINO COCK ROACH AND A WHITE RAT and they treated my children like they are COCK ROACHES AND RATS TOO and Clara Pumphrey she really always did hate my gut as if I did something to her no I did not do a damn thing to her at all. and she got a set up on me she hates me really just that much and I really do wish she didn’t invite me in her house like that she soaked the chicken and the potatoes in an enormous amount of salt,Clara did that on purpose I did not eat that Shit it was poison. and several years later.before I left the hospital with my newborn babies somebody swiched breakfast food on me at the hospital, I ordered regular food but they switched the food to oatmeal on me and I did not order no oatmeal and something was put in the oatmeal I did not eat that I thought something may be wrong with the oatmeal;. somebody in this family didn’t want me with my babies at all.

October 17, 2012

I NEVER HAD NO KIND OF FUTURE IN THIS FAMILY FROM THE START

Hey! People don’t forget I was born an innocent baby too Albino or not it didn’t matter can’t y’all see Nelson and Carmella Barber didn’t want me for her daughter, y’all don’t see that. It was very wrong for all those grown adults who didn’t want me take me home and they robbed me of my innocence and they robbed me of my personal dignity for nothing I done that is because I was not wanted by the family and I was not welcomed at all, TO THEM PEOPLE I WAS ONLY JUST ANOTHER MOUTH TO FEED, I NEVER HAD NO KIND OF FUTURE IN THIS FAMILY

AND ABOUT PEOPLE GOSSIPING ABOUT ME I REALLY DON’T CARE THAT IS THE WAY THEM FAMILY PEOPLE GOT RUMORS THAT ARE LESS THAN HALF THE TRUTH STARTED AGAINST ME FROM THE START.THEY DESTROYED MY FUTURE AND THEY DESTROYED MY LIFE FOR THE FACT THAT I WAS NOT WANTED AT THAT CRAP IS NOT NO DAMN COINCIDENT NO IT IS NOT AT ALL AND FOR THAT FAR LENGTH OF TIME TOO. WHERE IS THE CLASS AT DO THEY GOT ANY KIND OF CLASS AT ALL. I COULDN’T EVEN LIVE IN PEACE AND TRANQUILITY AND I COULD NEVER EVEN RELAX BECAUSE OF ALL THE NASTY HATRED AND CRIMINAL ACTS DONE TO ME FOR NOTHING AND ON TOP OF BEING AN UNWANTED CHILD AND I WAS ABUSED SINCE CHILD HOOD AND I NEVER EVEN LIVED A NORMAL LIFE AT ALL BECAUSE THE FAMILY DIDN’T LET ME LIVE A NORMAL LIFE THE WAY I GOT A RIGHT TO LIVE, I AM A HUMAN BEING TOO I GOT FEELINGS TOO LIKE EVERYBODY GOT, I AM NOT NO DAMN DIFFERENT. LOOK AT A WOMAN I THOUGH WAS MY MOTHER SHE DON’T EVEN TALK TO ME AND SHE DON’T HAVE NOTHING TO DO WITH ME AT ALL AND THE SIBLINGS DON’T EITHER.

Patricia: HI. One more thing, I don’t control Muff’s money. House is expensive to upkeep and you guys obviously don’t have a clue. And no one tells Muff what to do. Charlene: Unfortunately some of you people never thought I was intelligent anyway. I am smarter than what you all think I am. Patricia: Thanks for confirming how you feel about me by giving Poochie my number. I have nothing else to say to you ever. 11/13/2011 Patricia Barber’s Text Message. HI. This is to let you know Diane’s grandson Terrell passed away Friday in his sleep. For questions contact Tammy. You can let Poochie know for I don’t have his number.

October 5, 2012

SUPERSTITIOUS BLACK FAMILY PEOPLE ATTACKED ME FOR NOTHING

I still have not forgotten in the summer of 1971, I was a very decent young lady a 15 year old child, while we were visiting a relative the grandmother on the mother side of the family Clara ask me Charlene are you going to bend over and let somebody get it so you can have a baby that look just like you, somethng about that made me feel very uneasy; and 13 months later on September 16-1972 someone tried to sexually assault me while I was on my way going to high school and this was in the broad day light about 10 am in the morning time. I was force to keep going to the same high school on the south side of Chicago Clara sister Carmella did not do nothing when all them kids at that was picking on me for nothing and some of them kids were trying to trip me down and some of them tried to push me down the stairs at that Chicago public high school and I could not walk the halls without some students laughing and snickering saying there she go is that your sister, at the time nobody did not tell me Nelson was my guardian there was not nothing wrong with me because I had Albinism I just was not wanted and I did not fit in their family that is what that was and they all did talk about me right behind my back and I was born and innocent baby like all other babies who are born innocent and what the grown ups do that is between them. I really do wish they kept me out of it altogether.

August 14, 2012

I DID NOT HAVE MY PERSONAL FREEDOM AT ALL

The family people never accepted me in their family from the very beginning and they never welcomed me at all, instead they treated me like an albino gorilla that belong in a zoo cage, I was really hurt by criminal dirt bag ugly treatment, they wouldn’t let me live. Several years of my life was really wasted from being psychologically and mentally abused and physically abused by people who should not have dragged me in their damn family and then pick on me and treat me like shit I didn’t walk in their damn family, I got hurt by everything. If anybody don’t believe me that is because it didn’t happen to them at all and child abuse of any form is wrong and is very criminal and the child is at the parents mercy and if that child is really not wanted the child will not be safe at all in that family and don’t let no one in the family ever be on that child side they will get turned against too by several family members they will do it; they will be against yours children just like the family in this family was already against my kids just before they was born and they tried to kidnap my kids like they kidnapped me in this family this is not my family. I want to let the hell alone.
All I got was pure conflicts from these people in this family; when I was born an innocent baby girl like all other babies I was not no different no matter what I was and what I had. I was told the man said I was not his baby, he denied me and he turn his back on me; he walked out of hospital, he could not adapt to me and he was not emotionally available for me. and he really did make me extremely nervous to the point to where my NERVES NEARLY MADE A NERVOUS WRECK AND SOMETIMES I WOULD BREAK OUT WITH NERVE WEPS, I WAS A SICK CHILD FROM THE VERY START AND I GREW UP A VERY SCARED AND A VERY NERVOUS CHILD; because of all of the rejection ,abuse. the use and the abuse and the torture that I suffered and the derogatory name callings I was very hurt by; names like: ALNINO, WHITE GIRL,YELLOW GAL,WHITE HONKY, DANCING EYES, YELLOW BITCHES and WHITE BITCHES TOO. I got picked on and bullied at the grade school and the high school too and I had more than the worst luck with the family I did not ask to be taken ,it was very wrong from the start. The people on the mother side they never took the time with me and the people on the father side they never took the time with me either; and I really do wish I was not taken there at all, but I didn’t have any control, that caused me to look for daddy and a father figure. The mother blamed everything on me to the point to where the whole family never did accept me as a family member. Instead they treated me like an outcast, an outside an outside Bitch. They treated me like an animal and breeder, they didn’t treat me like a person and they act like my children are not my children, they are treating me like I am not my kids mother they treat my kids like they are their kids. NO THEY ARE NOT THEIR KIDS. Them people don’t give a damn about me and my children at all. While I was in the home being abused; them people always threatened to take me to a counselor, a psychiatrist to find out if I am crazy or not. I haven’t done nothing to anyone. I was not a threat to nobody; and not even to myself and I was not a threat to the community at large; I AM THE ONE WHO IS NOT SAFE. Hey I didn’t even know I was in the world yet; I am not responsible for having albinism and I was NOT THIS FAMILY’S CURSE,THEY JUST DIDN’T WANT ME IN THEIR FAMILY AT ALL; I’m not dumb and I’m not stupid, then why do Carmella Barber who was supposed be a mother to me. SHE HATES ME SO MUCH and I didn’t do anything to her and she always blamed and fault me for her husband and her mother in law for hating her because her mother in law thought she was an albino and I was born with this genetic condition which I was not responsible for.THEY DEHUMANIZED ME from the very start and for nothing that I done to any of them peope FOR NOTHING; SHE told me her mother in law tried to get her killed because of ME that was not my fault; They didn’t have to take me to their family, Them people should not have taken me to their family at all, THEY SHOULD HAVE LEFT ME BEHIND AND LET ME ALONE;

June 18, 2012

IT WAS THE ABUSE BECAUSE I WAS UNWANTED BY THE FAMILY

Biology servers us right all it takes is a man and a female and it takes two to tangle,then why both the parents who both denied me at birth had no kind of love for me at all. I really do not know if they are really my parents or not and why did they torture me for several years for nothing and for nothing I didn’t do to any of them people;  I started kindergarten class in 1961 and they interrupted my stay in kindergarten school and I was not allowed to complete school, and I was nearly 3 years behind in grade school and that was not my fault either and there was a plan to keep me in
school untill I reach age 28 by the time I got out of school, I am so glad it did’t happen that way because these people in this family hated me to the point to where everybody in the family was able to go to school and work and get paid without problems,  I was the one who they picked on. they blamed me for things that the grown adults did before I even thought of being born and I could have died before I was born and what the hell did I have to do with the way I was born and why did them people bring me in this family when they never did want nothing to do with me from the beginning,  all the siblings are dark tan and brown skin and I am the only one in this family who has an ivory white skin and blonde hair and  I really don’t know if they are really my parents or not and why did Carmella Barber pick on me for nothing I did to her and her people pick on me and call me all kinds of racist and derogatory names and dancing eyes and all I ever heard from them family people was Charlene is an ALBINO THIS AND AN ALBINO THAT, Carmella the women who I thought was my nother she did not tell me that girls get their periods every month, she waited until after it happened to me it was wrong that was her responsible to tell me, the people in this family don’t tell me nothing because they don’t want me to know a damn thing just be a dumb bell because they didn’t want me at all and I can tell that. and  Girls should be told about the monthly period or explain it in a way that they can understand so they won’t get shamed and embarrassed and picked on forever and a life time of pure hell for deeds they didn’t do;  them people in this family always told me to dye that SHIT BLACK AND I DYED MY HAIR BROWN FOR SEVERAL YEARS AND I WAS FORCED TO WEAR BROWN WIGS AND I DID MY VERY BEST TO FIT IN THIS DAMN KIND OF FAMILY AND Carmella Barber always hated me because she never wanted me for her child and she isolated me and her sister Clara Pumphrey always controlled me behind my back and she is very dangerously sneaky against me and all of them treated me like a child and they always did meddle in all of my personal business, they did get my business behind my back and they meddled in all of my afairs and all of them people pose a serious threat to my safety and they pose a serious threat to my children’s personal safety and them people man handled me and they man handled my son Alexander so bad to the degree and point where them people damn near killed him in July-28-2008 and what the hell did a man Sherman get in my son Alexander’s face and ask him is he keeping his nose clean look at all the other people in this family they not keeping their nose clean and all them people do is talk about me and my children and pick on me and my kids because them people did not want me in this family well I didn’t tell the so called mother and father to bring me to this family I didn’t just walk in their family that is not fair to me and that is not fair to my children.  It was very wrong for all those grown adults who didn’t want me take me home and they robbed me of my innocence and they robbed me of my dignity and they robbed my children of their persona dignity too.  They way them people always acted towards me and the way they act towards my children they don’t want me to live at all and they don’t want both of my children to live at all either, then why they keep picking on me and why they keep picking on my children all they want to see is blood well a punk hit me in my face and gave me a nose bleeding I was wearing eye glasses he could have put my eyes out for nothing I did, he told me I was adopted  them people pose a serious threat to my personal safety and they pose a serious threat to my children’s personal safety A GUN AND A CANE WAITING. and why did people put bloody chicken bones in my door way and under my window when I was paying rent at 8921 N 91st Street in Milwaukee WI and when I relocated from that address in 2001, less than one month them people suddenly start putting citations on me with a vehicle that I never did operate and I never did drive the Van at all. all of them people did that to me on purpose and they really did do that deliberately and all them people did mary me off right behind my back and for several years them people always treated me like I was lacking in intelligence and like I did not know no better. This don”t make no damn sense at all;  I got taken to a family by people who really never wanted me bring me into a situation that is very dangerous, wrong and very unfair to me and my children; I didn’t really deserve that at all and nobody bothered to explain nothing to me at all  for several years and for that damn length of time and not one single person didn’t even bother to ask no kind of questions of what is the problem and what did I or what did Charlene do if anything at all.  and it is only right,  Hey I am not wrong at all, that is criminal torture and that causes mental abuse and a lot of disstress and heart problems and stress, and STRESS REALLY DO KILL. ESPECIALLY  IT’S NOT MY FAUL AND THE FAMILY DID ABANDONED ME FOR DECADES NOW. I DIDN’T NEED THIS FAMILY FOR MY GUARDIAN THEY DON’T CARE NOTHING ABOUT ME AT ALL AND I AND MY CHILDREN DON’T NEED THESE FAMILY PEOPLE FOR THEIR GUARDIAN EITHER THEM PEOPLE IN THIS DON’T GIVE A DAMN ABOUT MY CHILDREN EITHER. ALL OF THAT IS CAUSED BY VERY HATEFUL, VERY EVIL,MEAN,VERY HOSTILE AND VERY VERY CRUEL PEOPLE, IT IS VERY WRONG FROM THE VERY BEGINNING, TO BLAME AND PICK ON CHILDREN, ESPECIALLY GROWN ADULTS, YOU DON’T BLAME THE CHILD AND YOU DON’T BEAT UP ON THE CHILD, DON’T BEAT THE CHILDREN UP.

May 15, 2012

All I Got Was Everlasting Ass Hoe Treatment

They interrupted my stay in kindergarten class, I ended up around grown adults in an unhealthy enviroment when I should have been in school with other children because I really did need that socialization like all other children, I didn’t deserve to be isolated it was wrong.
I am wondering how many parents don’t want their childern to go to school. especially in nursery and kindergarten elementary school to interact with their peer group and to get that socialization children really need, no child deserves to be criminally isolated it is very wrong from the start to do any child like that and especially for a Black American child and any other minority child and all walks of life as well and Black minorities have to fight for their civil rights to attend school and why would a mother, especially a Black American mother take her child from a kindergarten class and the child don’t have no medical problems and not hospitalized ,why would you do that to the child,TAKE THEM AWAY FOR THAT SOCIALIZATION? I THINK IT IS STRANGE. DON’T YOU ALL. Look what happened to me and what about the plan to keep a child out of school and the child return nearly 3 years later and a plan to make the child repeat the same damn grade for 2 years in a row for example; grade 3rd age 10,
grade 4th age 12
grade 5th age 14
grade 6th age 16
grade 7th age 18
grade 8th age 20
grade 9th age 22
grade 10th age 24
grade 11th age26
grade 12th age 28 and I DID GRADUATE ABOUT ON TIME i AM SO GLAD IT DIDN’T HAPPEN TO ME LIKE THAT IN THE WRONG AND CRIMINAL WAY YOU JUST DON’T HOLD A CHILD BACK LIKE THAT, I did learn about me being held back clean untill I got out of school at age 28 years of age and it was very wrong. HOW DO YOU DO THAT . I AM SO GLAD THAT THE PERSON DIDN’T GET AWAY WITH THAT. YOU DON’T MESS UP YOUR CHILDS EDUCATION, HELP THEM OUT SO THAT THEY CAN HAVE A GOOD FUTURE AND A DECENT LIFE TOO. IT IS ONLY RIGHT AND FAIR TO THE LETTER. They didn’t want me with no kind of future. I can tell. I can see that. I’M NOT A DUMB BELL. GIVE ME A BREAK! I AM A PERSON TOO.