A Small Child Blamed
They punished me over decades
Dear Your Honor
Please allow me to explain it,
I was born in a seriously dysfunctional family where some people with personal problems that need to be addressed and corrected even before I was born; this problem have gotten me into a world of trouble with some of them people and also I have been having problems from my grandmother’s former husband John McCoy’s grandchildren from the McCoy family and his grandson Ralph James; and Rochelle Saymore and Lauraine Gordan are Ralph James aunts these people are not related to us by blood at all
I was a young adult,age 20 when my grandmother told me about an incident at the time I was only just a 5year old baby girl unable to defend myself; my grandmother Carmella McCoy was baby sitting me for my parents.
Barbara McCoy James had several young babies of her own,including Ralph James, both women left the home there was only just babies neglected and left behind and there was no adult supervision of the babies and there was no one there at all. I was the oldest at that time; I didn’t know anything about it, there was a new born baby boy about a month old named :Markham James, the McCoy family keep blaming me for all of the adult responsibilities; The child was jumped all over and as a result the child died, everybody said why didn’t Charlene stop everybody from jumping all over him at the time. They are still relentlessly angry at me for this. Those two women left the home to get a drink,and they were gone for long hours. I am really tired of paying for something that was not my fault from the beginning. That was the adult responsibility and I am wondering why do they keep blaming me for this. This is not fair to my family and I at all. It is very dangerous to leave children unsupervised and home alone. Also I want to make another point, July 11 the summer of 1967, I was only just 11 years old while I was playing with friends in the neighbor a husky boy ran up to me and he hit me in my face with his fist and gave me a nose bleeding, I was wearing eye glasses and if he broke my glasses he would have put my eyes out. CAN SOMEONE PLEASE HELP ME?
Because of this I am now at a personal lost and is deliverately being financially disadvantaged and where I am living I am having trouble getting a medicaid card of any kind, and I also feel that when I try to get a job, I have problem either I don’t hear from a company or I am suddenly let go and on a short notice and also in 2006 I had a cargiver job and in July 2006 the IRS sent me a notice informing me that someone filed a 1040 form ending December 31-2001 bearing my social security number on it and they picked up my children on the form and they was the head of household and I did not do that to myself. Even though the McCoy family have pictures of us,it make me really wonder what do they keep the pictures for. I personally do appreciate it that they let the photos go and just forget about me and my children and not target and focus on me and my family any more, I am a person too and I don’t have to be one or any of then and I know I am right and I am wondering are Ralph H James and his people going to keep tracking me down like that in that manner? I really do want to be left alone. I really want to know why some of them people don’t want me to go on with my own personal life like I have a right to and why them people don’t want my children to live and go on with their own personal life that they do have a right to live and to be treated like people because that is what they are, they are not objects. I am wondering If I can ever recover from all of this and If I ever buy a new home will somebody destroy my new home again? sometimes I really do wonder that. and also I am wondering If I can ever work on my own personal identity, get paid to work and not be bothered by a safety threat. I am very bothered by that.
I was also abused as a child too and no one don’t even care how I was treated while I was in someone else’s home. I was teased called names and yelled at too. When I asked for a glass of milk, someone put a feeno mint pill in it, I refused to accept it and sometime they would give me beer. When I asked for a glass of water, I was used and targeted for a family scapegoat and everthing that is wrong with this family is all my fault. I was called albino and the white B-word by some of them people. When we were kids Clara taken pictures of us. And the McCoy family have photos of us too I really do feel very bad about the situation. Clara Pumphrey is the aunt who never had no love for me at all and I didn’t do nothing to her; I will just leave her alone altogether, because when I called her to ask to talk with Patsy – Susan Reddings, because I thought maybe by Patsy who worked in the U.S. post office could help me on getting my mail back to normal. But instead Clara gotten very nasty and ballistic, she is always blaming things on me too, she never was anykind of help to me because she always hated me, so she hung up the phone on me and she called back right away I told her I will not bother her anymore and I hung up on her. I only wanted her to call Patsy and give her my phone number so she can call me herself and I was not wrong at all. I already know some people in this family never wanted me with nothing no way. I lost what little I had and my home I was buying with a 30-year mortgage I was there for only 1 years and 10 months a 4 bed room home, in a neighborhood where I didn’t know anyone and I did mind my own business there too.
I been put through several years of just being sabotaged on purpose by several people who personally hated my guts. I am really hurt by all of that kind of hostile treatment against me and against my kids. my children are disabled and I have my own health issues too and we do not need no more unfair criminal abuse from anyone and we just want to be let alone. we want to be treated like people just like everyone else is and I do have my rights to my very own personal privacy like everyone else do and I really do wish that people just respect me and my children’s personal privacy and stop using me and my children like that.
How can I just get them people off of my back and get them out of my hair? I want to get my life back and I want to get my personal freedom back, my family and I really do need some help. Is there anyone out there willing and is able to help us, please?
I don’t understand why she is so full of hatred against me and against my children who never did nothing to her. I just don’t understand that. everyone thinks she is so jealous and is very controlling. Her son is no longer here because he has committed suicide. I didn’t have nothing to do with that. I really wonder that do she really got something against me, who ever have something against me, I have a right to know what it is. I am a person just like everybody else is. Not different from the rest.
I still have not forgotten in the summer of 1971, I was a very decent young lady, while we were visiting a relative Clara ask me Charlene are you going to bend over and let somebody get it so you can have a baby that look just like you, something about that made me feel very uneasy and September 16-1972 someone tried to sexually assault me while I was on my way going to high school and this was in the broad day light.about 10am in the morning time.
Ralph James and his brothers were taken away from their mother and placed in foster care untill 18 years of age, my family and I never had anything to do them, and we did not know where they lived but one day Ralph James suddenly showed up at our home while I was living at home with my parents and he never said what he really wanted.
I was pretty much close to home, and I did graduate from high school.that year 1976, and 3 of us was still living at home and suddenly one day Clara the aunt called our parents for only me and my brother who is mentally ill to spend 2 weeks in her home, I never knew what she really wanted me for; she only talked to my parent. not me and I was an adult age 20 years and after I was there she asked me Charlene don’t you feel sorry for yourself, I told her no I don’t feel sorry for myself, she kept picking on me I could see that and she did ask me in front of a women neighbor do you think I am better than your parents, and do you like me better than your mother and father? and when I didn’t give her the right answer that she wanted to hear she did turn on me, she was very angry and she started picking a nasty fight with me in her house.she argued and she said she was going to beat my ass and she tried to hit me in my face and she told me what I need was a big black private, her son at the time came out of his bedroom and taken me to his bedroom untill the coast was clear it was summer time,dark outside and it was raining, and I left out her front door and I never went back again, we were out of there in 3 days.
I am wondering how can I get te help and support I really need because I can not go it alone.
Please help me out somebody.
My children and I have been personally hurt and injured and I don’t want anyone to think I am anti social because I am not like that and I can’t take that no more than anyone else can.
I am tired of this use and abuse crap altogether.I have been criminally abused, followed and harrassed by them over the decade, and I really want to know what all is so wrong with me in the first place. that justified this kind of hostile hatered against me and against my children?. Child welfare people suddenly showed up at my door, this
happened nearly a dozen years between 1990 through 2002. 1990 – First time, 1997 – Again, 2002 – Repeatedly. And between that time, this is not no co-incident, someone must know too much about me and somebody don’t like me personally; and they also don’t want me to have my own kids; it is jealousy and vendetta; these are the same people who have been targetting me and focusing on me for a dangerous excuse just to get back at me and hurt my kids who didn’t do nothing to them people. I know what I am talking about, my children never did need any protection away from me. I was the one who really need the protection away from them people and over the years and decades; these are the same people in the family who has deprived me over the years, and they never wanted me to have nothing no way. they are all in my way, I am not in their way, no I am not. well I didn’t do this to myself, nobody is going to hurt themselves no kind of way. I don’t hate myself like that, no I don’t. But, I am very tired of people thinking that what is wrong with me and everthing else is my fault, (otherwise blamed) that is too petty and this is downright uncivilized and that’s too much to put on me. That makes me wonder how long is this going to go on, it has been far more than my lifetime over. I been robbed of my childhood and my kids were robbed of their own childhood too, because people were taking unfair advantages of me first and they are treating my kids the same way too. I had to pull my children from a day program for their safety. Some of them people act like they own me like a possession and they really do make me feel I am really being hijacked (under somebody’s control), then why won’t they just leave me alone and leave my kids alone? That is not right. When my son Alexander was in Warren Park, he mysteriously gotten away from there on July 28, 2008, and ended up in a hospital and he was not looking so good at all. He was not eating, not drinking any fluids, his teeth was clenched (jaws is jammed). He would not talk to me at all, and his eyes was rolled back to his head. I did see that, he was in Illinois Masonic Hospital and he was in several hospitals as a result of that are there were bruises, scars and holes poked in his legs, I didn’t do that my own son, that happened when he was suddenly in somebody else place and care. (Hospital and Nursing Home) he was not at home when this occurred to him and not no one didn’t even talk to me, he had to be put on life support and a feeding tube. I will never ever forget that all the pure hatred and hell that people put me and my kids through over the years, they blamed me since I was only a 5 year old baby girl and for grown people responsbilities? I do know my children and I can’t even get a break from any of this abuse and I am very concerned for our safety.
I really hate to bother you guys with this but I been put through a great deal of hurt and sorrow and they nearly did cost me a nervous break as a result of this kind of trauma I am trying to be as strong as possible because I have both of my children Alexander and Vincent to think about and my husband to think about too, although I have been somewhat secluded from out side, I am not an antisocial person at all, and again I did not mean any harm by just comfiding in someone.
sincerely
Charlene
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