Posts tagged ‘unloved children’

December 17, 2013

DO I LOOK LIKE ANY OF THEM PEOPLE? WHY DO THOSE PEOPLE KEEP TARGETING ME

These people are not my family.ImageDO I LOOK LIKE ANY OF THEM PEOPLE? WHY DO THOSE PEOPLE KEEP TARGETING ME AND FOCUSING ON ME FOR THE MONEY? THAT IS NOT MY FAMILY ONLY MY TWO SONS ARE MY KIDS THAT IS MY SON ALEXANDER AND MY SON VINCENT, I DON’T KNOW ABOUT THOSE OTHER PEOPLE THEY NEVER DID TREATED ME LIKE I WAS RELATED TO THEM THEY DON’T DO THAT.

This is the family I did not belong too this family did sacrifice me for being an unwanted child with Albinism, I was not safe in Carmella Elizabeth Pumphrey Barber and Nelson Reed Barber family they all treated me very cruel and they treated me like an outcast and an outsider and I want to live and I want to be let the Hell alone I got a right to live my life the people put all kinds of mentally ill labels on me and that is an insult to my intelligence I am not no delusional disorder. DO I LOOK LIKE ANY OF THEM PEOPLE?

September 2, 2013

THE FAMILY REMOVED THEMSELVES FROM ME SEVERAL YEARS AGO

Imagemyself Charlene and sons  Alexander & Vincent 001 - CopyI am not no crazy person like the so-called parents called me they were the ones who always did physical, emotion, mental and psychologically abused me for 57 years of my life the so-called family removed themselves from me since birth, they both denied me and they turned their backs on me, they did torture me for decades and I should not have to be ashamed of myself born with albinism, and forced to wear a brown hair wigs and dye my hair brown because the family people kept teasing me and picking on me because I was born different they injured me that way and they exploited me for many years and they nearly killed my son for nothing because they did target both of my children and they always targeted me first several years before I had my children and when I was only a little girl a teen ager I was not the type who was in a relationship with males I was in school trying to complete my education and for a strange reason that abuse and the racist derogatory name callings followed me even in the high schools and I still did not bother no darn body I was not no trouble maker. SOMEBODY TELL ME HOW DID A BLACK WOMEN GET ON A CTA L TRAIN IN CHICAGO, IL ,SOMEBODY I DID NOT EVEN KNOW AT ALL HOW DID SHE KNOW MY NAME WAS CH, SHE ASKED ME WAS MY NAME CH I DID NOT ANSWER HER AT FIRST BUT WHEN SHE ME DO YOU HAV A SISTER NAME D I TOLD HER YES I WAS REALLY RELUCTANT I DID NOT UNDERSTAND HOW DID SHE KNOW MY NAME WHEN I NEVER SAW THE WOMEN BEFORE NO I DID NOT, THIS FAMILY EXPLOITED ME VERY BADLY, I CAN NOT GET MY BENEFITS I BEEN TAKEN TO THE WRONG AND THEY ARE STILL TARGETING ME AND THEY ARE TARGETING MY CHILDREN, THEY HINDERED MY GETTING APPROVED FOR SSI AND MEDICAID AND I AM NOT WORKING, HOW CAN I MOVE ON WITH MY OWN LIFE AND GET PASS THEM PEOPLE WHEN I DON’T HAVE NOT ONE SINGLE PERSON HERE IN CHICAGO, IL EVEN SUPPORTIVE OF ME,?
THE FAMILY PEOPLE ARE VERY NARCISSISTIC PEOPLE DO ANYBODY KNOW SOMETHING ABOUT THEM KIND AND I DID MOVE OUT OF STATE FOR THE FIRST TIME IN THE 90s but things did not change because the family people did not leave me alone, and they did not leave my children alone and they don’t want me with my kids. I was only telling the truth because I do not want nothing to happen to me, they restricted my freedom and they took away my human rights and dignity those people do not respect no law authorities not when it comes to me no they do not. the counseling help is not free don’t think I didn’t try I did try the people are standing in my way I am not in their way, and nobody here do not want to help me.

March 29, 2013

ALL THIS BS, BECAUSE I WAS AN UNWANTED ALBINO BABY GIRL

ImageAfter severals years of abuse you can’t get over that, THE PEOPLE IN THIS FAMILY DO GOT SOMETHING AGAINST PEOPLE WITH ALBINISM I KNOW BECAUSE THE FAMILY PEOPLE REALLY DO GOT A SERIOUS PERSONAL VENDETTA AGAINST ME. THEY DEHUMANIZED ME, THEY USED ME AND THEY DELIBERATELY STOOD IN MY WAY THEY WOULD NOT LET ME LIVE MY LIFE THE WAY I WANTED TO, THEY BLOCKED ME FROM WORKING A DECENT PAID CAREER WITH A WELL PAID SALARY, ALL THIS BECAUSE I WAS AN UNWANTED ALBINO BABY GIRL AND WAS TAKEN TO THE WRONG DAMN FAMILY. It is not my fault I was taken home where I was not welcomed the entire family did not even accept me from the beginning that is where all my troubles began at.and I was at their mercy and the people on the mother side they never took the time with me. The people on the step father side side of the family they never too the time with me either, I don’t even have not one single cousin communicating with me not at all and the whole family is like this with me I am not lying about that I don’t think I am a child. I am a grown women with a mother who always did treat me like a child and she still treat me like a child and there was nothing wrong with me but she told me she wanted to tell me how I got all messed up and it was about some white people she had in her family and I don’t know them at all and then I was told to dye my hair black and I was forced to dye my hair brown for several years and wear brown wigs until I stopped doing that and I should not have had to dye my blonde hair an not wear no wigs, I got a right to wear my hair blond that is my true hair color and I was called derogatory names Albino and some of those people on the mother side of the family said they don’t have no ALBINISM IN THEIR FAMILY I WAS TOLD THAT I AM NOT LYING AT ALL. I AM TELLING THE TRUTH AND NO I CAN NOT GET OVER IT AFTER BEING ABUSED FOR NOTHING I DID TO THEM PEOPLE FOR FAR TOO LONG and for decades and for that LENGTH OF TIME DON’T MAKE NO KIND OF SENSE AT ALL.
What am I supposed to do just put up and shut up for unprovoked vigilante bias crimes done to me for nothing and the did man handle my children too, they nearly killed one of my children and I had to flee far too many addresses amd I didn’t bother nobody and I did mind my very own business. and I made the big mistake of telling the mother I was may relocate she did tell me if I move somewhere else.I will just get the same thing and I might as well stay here in Chicago IL
The people won’t let me alone and I am not even bothering them at all. they did destroy I always had trouble getting paid jobs they always stood in my way and when I wanted to work when I was a teenager the mother did not back me up at all.I got excuses instead, I got stuck with babysitting and house work. this went on against me for decades and now I am the only person in the family with out any income but everybody got income. no I can not just get over it because was very criminal from the beginning. it is wrong and where I’m at I can’t get a medicaid card and I don’t have any income I am telling the truth.

December 23, 2012

People Really Need To Understand That Child Abuse Do Happen To Innocent Children

We were at our grandmother’s home on the mother side of the family and I asked her for a glass of milk and she put an object it was a feen-o-ment pill in it and I looked under the glass and it was there, I told her I’m not going to drink that stuff, Now what if I had dranked that tanted milk, used the bathroom on myself in Nelson Barber’s car because of what Carmella Barber’s mother done, Nelson would have killed me because of what somebody else did to me, I WAS NOT SAFE IN THIS FAMILY, I gave that crap back to her; I am so glad I gave it back to the grandmother, Tyrone Barber tried to force sour kool aid that was unsweetened down my throat,he threatened to whoop me with a belt I told him if he don’t leave me alone I was going to tell Nelson and Muff on him. they spat in my face, they spat in my hair, they forced me to dye my hair brown and they forced me to wear brown wigs for several years, I was not going to dye my hair black because I wanted to be myself and then one day I used COPPER TONE TAN product on my skin trying to fit this damn cursed family and THIS FAMILY STILL REJECTS ME AND THEY WILL NEVER LEAVE ME ALONE AND THEY WILL NOT BACK OFF AT ALL AND THIS FAMILY WILL NEVER LEAVE MY CHILDREN ALONE AT ALL AND THEM PEOPLE IN THIS FAMILY WILL NEVER BACK OFF BOTH OF MY CHILDREN AND THEY NEVER WANTED NONE OF MY CHILDREN IN THIS FAMILY FROM THE DAY I HAD MY KID THEY JUST SIMPLY DON’T WANT ME AND MY KIDS IN THIS DAMN FAMILY AT ALL AND HIDE BEHIND THE CHURCH.
I gotten hurt being played with like a toy and an object and they always did treated me like I AM AN ALBINO COCK ROACH AND A WHITE RAT and they treated my children like they are COCK ROACHES AND RATS TOO and Clara Pumphrey she really always did hate my gut as if I did something to her no I did not do a damn thing to her at all. and she got a set up on me she hates me really just that much and I really do wish she didn’t invite me in her house like that she soaked the chicken and the potatoes in an enormous amount of salt,Clara did that on purpose I did not eat that Shit it was poison. and several years later.before I left the hospital with my newborn babies somebody swiched breakfast food on me at the hospital, I ordered regular food but they switched the food to oatmeal on me and I did not order no oatmeal and something was put in the oatmeal I did not eat that I thought something may be wrong with the oatmeal;. somebody in this family didn’t want me with my babies at all.

November 20, 2012

HOW CAN I HAVE MY PEACE AND MY DIGNITY?

THE  JANUARY-7-2013 DATE,  I DON’T LIKE THAT DATE FOR A SAFETY CONCERN, I GOT A RIGHT TO.THINGS DON’T LOOK GOOD AT ALL FOR ME AND MY FAMILY, THE FAMILY IS A PROBLEM FOR ME, THEY TREATED ME LIKE AN OUTCAST,AN OUTSIDER AND AN OUTSIDE BITCH, THEY USED TRACKING NUMBERS ON ME LIKE I AM A RARE ANIMAL THAT IS WHAT THE FAMILY PEOPLE ALWAYS TREATED ME LIKE, THOSE PEOPLE DON’T WANT ME TO HAVE NO KIND OF MONEY,  IF I TRY TO GET MY OWN MONEY LIKE A PAID JOB THEY PUT PEOPLE ON ME, BECAUSE THEY DID THAT BEFORE;  I WAS LET GO WITHOUT NOTICE, AND I ALWAYS HAD A HARD TIME GETTING A JOB, I TRY TO GET DISABILITY, THE FAMILY PEOPLE WHO TARGETED ME , THEY PICKED  JANUARY 7-2013  FOR AN APPOINTMENT DATE, LOOK AT ALL THE  # 7,11,13,14,25,28,49,65,  LOOK AT ALL THE ALBINOS AND THEWHITE BITCHES NAMES THEM PEOPLE AND THEIR HELPERS CALLED ME OVER THE YEARS TO THIS DECADE FOR NOTHING I DID NOT EVEN DO TO NONE OF THEM CRUEL AND HATEFUL PEOPLE.THEY WANT TO DRAG ME OFF TO A DIFFERENT CITY I DON’T KNOW NOTHING ABOUT,AND I DON’T KNOW ANYONE IN THAT TOWN FOR AN APPOINTMENT DATE 1-7-2013  THEY ARE RACE HATERS , I AM NOT WHITE, I AM A BLACK AMERICAN PERSON , DON’T USE ME FOR NO WHITE PERSON,  DID THEY EVER PICK ON A WHITE PERSON? BUT THOSE FAMILY DID PICK ON ME FOR SEVERAL YEARS, NOT JUST YEARS AGO

October 17, 2012

I NEVER HAD NO KIND OF FUTURE IN THIS FAMILY FROM THE START

Hey! People don’t forget I was born an innocent baby too Albino or not it didn’t matter can’t y’all see Nelson and Carmella Barber didn’t want me for her daughter, y’all don’t see that. It was very wrong for all those grown adults who didn’t want me take me home and they robbed me of my innocence and they robbed me of my personal dignity for nothing I done that is because I was not wanted by the family and I was not welcomed at all, TO THEM PEOPLE I WAS ONLY JUST ANOTHER MOUTH TO FEED, I NEVER HAD NO KIND OF FUTURE IN THIS FAMILY

AND ABOUT PEOPLE GOSSIPING ABOUT ME I REALLY DON’T CARE THAT IS THE WAY THEM FAMILY PEOPLE GOT RUMORS THAT ARE LESS THAN HALF THE TRUTH STARTED AGAINST ME FROM THE START.THEY DESTROYED MY FUTURE AND THEY DESTROYED MY LIFE FOR THE FACT THAT I WAS NOT WANTED AT THAT CRAP IS NOT NO DAMN COINCIDENT NO IT IS NOT AT ALL AND FOR THAT FAR LENGTH OF TIME TOO. WHERE IS THE CLASS AT DO THEY GOT ANY KIND OF CLASS AT ALL. I COULDN’T EVEN LIVE IN PEACE AND TRANQUILITY AND I COULD NEVER EVEN RELAX BECAUSE OF ALL THE NASTY HATRED AND CRIMINAL ACTS DONE TO ME FOR NOTHING AND ON TOP OF BEING AN UNWANTED CHILD AND I WAS ABUSED SINCE CHILD HOOD AND I NEVER EVEN LIVED A NORMAL LIFE AT ALL BECAUSE THE FAMILY DIDN’T LET ME LIVE A NORMAL LIFE THE WAY I GOT A RIGHT TO LIVE, I AM A HUMAN BEING TOO I GOT FEELINGS TOO LIKE EVERYBODY GOT, I AM NOT NO DAMN DIFFERENT. LOOK AT A WOMAN I THOUGH WAS MY MOTHER SHE DON’T EVEN TALK TO ME AND SHE DON’T HAVE NOTHING TO DO WITH ME AT ALL AND THE SIBLINGS DON’T EITHER.

Patricia: HI. One more thing, I don’t control Muff’s money. House is expensive to upkeep and you guys obviously don’t have a clue. And no one tells Muff what to do. Charlene: Unfortunately some of you people never thought I was intelligent anyway. I am smarter than what you all think I am. Patricia: Thanks for confirming how you feel about me by giving Poochie my number. I have nothing else to say to you ever. 11/13/2011 Patricia Barber’s Text Message. HI. This is to let you know Diane’s grandson Terrell passed away Friday in his sleep. For questions contact Tammy. You can let Poochie know for I don’t have his number.

September 20, 2012

THE CHILD ABUSE AGAINST ME IS NOT STOPPING AT ALL

I was never safe with these family people from the very beginning, all of them people are against me. they been that way towards me for several yearsl. 1 the people dehumanized me and they set me up for other people turning their backs on me 2 the so called mother isolated me from other people. 3 taken me out of my kindergarten class and I was not allowed to complete kindergarten. 4 they kept me nearly 3 years behind in school grade and I lost peers. 5 the man who denied me had guardianship over me and he really hated my guts and he didn’t have no love for me at all because I was nothing to him. 6 the so called mother she always blamed and fault me for everything that was wrong between her and her husband that is because she didn’t want me for her child I wasn’t their darling daughter to them I am an object not worth living that is very strange why all their venomous hatred against me?  7 The family people always did treat me like I am an outcast and an outsider, they never did treat me like a blood line relative no they did notl and they always treated both my children like an outcast and an outsider, they never did treat none of my children like a blood line relative at all and they don’t have albinism in their family at all,  some of the so call mother side people told me that, I DON’T LIKE THE FEELING , THEY CONTROLLED MY LIFE LIKE I AM AN ANIMAL AND THEY FOLLOW ME EVERYWHERE I MOVE AND RELOCATE TO AND THEY HUNT AND TRACK ME DOWN ON PURPOSE LIKE I AM AN ANIMAL,  I GOT A RIGHT TO LIVE MY LIFE THE WAY I WANT TO AND THEY VIOLATED ME ON PURPOSE AND OTHER FAMILY PEOPLE FOLLOWED AND THEY ALL JUMPED ALL OVER ME AND THEY DID ATTACKED MY CHILDREN TOO BEHIND MY BACK AND IF ANY ONE OF MY CHILDREN GO BACK TO ANOTHER HOSPITAL AND ANOTHER NURSING HOME THE PEOPLE WILL KILL HIM THAT IS JUST TO GET BACK AT ME FOR SEVERAL YEARS OF VIOLENT CRIMINAL CHILD ABUSE I SUFFERED FOR NOTHING I EVEN DID. ALL OF THIS BECAUSE Nelson and Carmella Barber took me home.  ALL EVERYBODY DID WAS TALKED ABOUT ME LIKE A DOG. Some of those people spat on me too and I should not have had to dye my hair brown and I should not have been forced to wear brown wigs for several years them people are trying to change my physical image they did not have no damn right to do that to me and they did try to change both my children physical images, I been called far too many ALBINO S AND WHITE BITCHES FOR FAR TOO MANY YEARS

August 8, 2012

THEY TOOK ME TO THE WRONG FAMILY,THEY TOYED WITH MY LIFE

I am wondering why did everybody deliberately forget the biology of a male and a female and all it took was a man to zip his pants down and a women to lift up her skirt and make a child and to not want the child and put every blame on a child is very wrong and criminal and have a baby and to not want the child is very wrong and all children need uncondictioal love and respect and a right to keep their personal dignity the way they have a right to and they took it all away from me from the very beginning of my life at the time I didn’t even know I was in the world in 1956 and why would a man deny a child is his anyway and why did the women who I thought was my mother turned on me too. and the siblings rejected me too. they stalked me on my telephone for several years and they always acted like I wasn’t apart of the family, they always looked very down on me and they treated  me like an outcast and an outsider and they are very ashamed of, the mother continues to isolate me from other like she always did and she never wanted me to work and earn my own money and money I don’t even have because of all violence and unprovoked abuses I been put througt for several years that is not no co-incident because it all began ever since I was small and I grew up being so afraid I also was vey shy and I became very withdrawn because of the worst than harsh abused and the social security number that I have did always caused me serious disadvantages and they still treat me like a child and they still keep following me every where I like I am not lying about and when the cowards scared me right out of Milwaukee, Wisconsin I fled Miss and I had ti keave and ended back in the parents house ,the mother told me I will never make the money Nelson make and I lost my supplemental income because my chldren are getting money from their father that is what she told me, I did not tell her that  because I always knew the social security did not bother a woman who like myself I was not married to my childrens father and I was not entitled to that income. and I didn’t tell her that is the reason why I lost my SSI, no I didn’t say that at all. because the was not the case and I applied for a medicaid card several times and I was told I was not able to get a card and I don’t work and I don’t have no kind of income and this family do not support me financially at all and they are not my guardian they are not supposed to be my guardian at all and they don’t supposed to be my children’s guardian at all it is very wrong and them people are very unreliable people. I DIDN’T NEED NO DAMN GUARDIAN THERE WAS NOT ANYTHING WRONG WITH ME AND I WAS NOT LACKING IN ANY INTELLIGENCE AT ALL, THEY DID THAT SHIT BECAUSE THEY REALLY HATED ME AND THE  FAMIILY PEOPLE TRIED TO TAKE MY CHILDREN AWAY FROM ME, THEY DIDN’T HAVE NO DAMN RIGHT TO STEAL MY CHILDREN I WAS NOT AN UNFIT MOTHER LIKE THE ONE I HAD. A GUARDIAN IS NOT NECESSARY IF THE CHILD IS NOT SEVERELY DISABLED,THEY DID THAT BECAUSE I GOT ALBINISM AND I AM NOT WANTED BY THIS FAMILY AT ALL. THEM PEOPLE IN THIS FAMILY THEY NEVER DID WANT ME IN THIS FAMILY AND THEY STILL DON’T WANT ME IN THEIR FAMILY, WELL I DID NOT TELL THEM TO TAKE ME TO THEIR FAMILY I DIDN’T TELL THEM PEOPLE TO TAKE ME HOME AND NOTHING WAS NOT MY S. THAT IS BS.

July 3, 2012

The Worst Nightmares I Lived Since My Childhood

 The worst night mares that I had in my life was being sabotaged by family members starting from the parents who denied me since the day I was born and I gotten hurt by a number of surprised, extreme hatred and too much fright and the villainous and bias hate crimes that was done to me for several years to the point to where the so called mother and father deliberately brain washed me and they both misled me from the very start and the mother, they pulled me out of school from my kindergarten class and I was shift off to 949 W Huron and I found myself on my need all bend over while a male was on me behind me and that was very inappropriate touching and that happened in the grandmother’s home and this happened when I was taken out of my kindergarten class room and I never got to complete kindergarten at all. and I was kept out of school until I returned back to school at age 7.5 years old and I had to start all over again and I was nearly 3 years behind in grade school and I got picked on and bullied in grade school and high school they set me up for nothing I did not even do to none of them people at all. I was taken to where people did drink and gotten drunk and leaving kids behind that was very wrong and very dangerous I was used by the adults all my whole entire life and they made me a family scapegoat and a people scapegoat too and they controlled my life and I was hurt by the offense and several life threatening situations and the gossip and the ambushment traps. they treated me like an outcast and an outsider.
I was born in a seriously dysfunctional family where some people with problems that need to be addressed and corrected even before I was born; this problem have gotten me into a world of trouble with some of them people and also I have been having problems from my grandmother’s former husband, John McCoy’s grandchildren from the McCoy family and his grandson Ralph James, his aunts are Rochelle Saymore and Lauraine Gordan, these people are not related to us by blood at all. I was a young adult age 20 when my grandmother told me about an incident at the time I was only just a 5 year old baby girl; my grandmother Carmella McCoy was babysitting me for my parents. Barbara McCoy James had several young babies of her own, including Ralph James, both women left the home there was only just babies neglected and left behind and there was no adult supervision of the babies and there was no one there at all. I was the oldest at that time, I didn’t know anything about it. there was a new born baby boy about a month old named Markham James, The McCoy people keep blaming me for all of the adult responsibiities. the child was jumped all over and as a result the child died.
everybody said why didn’t Charlene stop everybody from jumping all over him at that time. They are still rentlessly angry at me for this. Those two women left the home to get a drink they were gone for long hours. I am really tire of paying for something that was not my fault from the begining. that was the adult responsibilities and I am wondering why do they keep blaming me for this; this is not fair to my family and I at all, It is very to dangerous to leave small children unsupervised and home alone. I am really tire of paying for something that was not my fault from the begining. that was the adult responsibilities and I am wondering why do they keep blaming me for this; this is not fair to my family and I. It is very to dangerous to leave small children unsupervised and home alone.
We were at our grandmother’s home on the mother side of the family and I asked her for a glass of milk and she put an object it was a feen-o-ment pill in it and I looked under the glass and it was there, I told her I’m not going to drink that stuff, I gave it back to the grandmother, Tyrone Barber tried to force sour kool aid that was unsweetened down my throat,he threatened to whoop me with a belt I told him if he don’t leave me alone I was going to tell Nelson and Muff on him. they spat in my face, they spat in my hair, they forced me to dye my hair brown and they forced me to wear brown wigs for several years, I was not going to dye my hair black because I wanted to be myself and then one day I used COPPER TONE TAN product on my skin trying to fit this damn cursed family and THIS FAMILY STILL REJECTS ME AND THEY WILL NEVER LEAVE ME ALONE AND THEY WILL NOT BACK OFF AT ALL AND THIS FAMILY WILL NEVER LEAVE MY CHILDREN ALONE AT ALL AND THEM PEOPLE IN THIS FAMILY WILL NEVER BACK OFF BOTH OF MY CHILDREN AND THEY NEVER WANTED NONE OF MY CHILDREN IN THIS FAMILY FROM THE DAY I HAD MY KID THEY JUST SIMPLY DON’T WANT ME AND MY KIDS IN THIS DAMN FAMILY AT ALL AND HIDE BEHIND THE CHURCH.
I gotten hurt being played with like a toy and an object and they always did treated me like I AM AN ALBINO COCK ROACH AND A WHITE RAT and they treated my children like they are COCK ROACHES AND RATS TOO and Clara Pumphrey she really always did hate my gut as if I did something to her no I did not do a damn thing to her at all. and she got a set up on me she hates me really just that much and I really do wish she didn’t invite me in her house like that she soaked the chicken and the potatoes in an enormous amount of salt,Clara did that on purpose I did not eat that Shit it was poison. and several years later.before I left the hospital with my newborn babies somebody swiched breakfast food on me at the hospital, I ordered regular food but they switched the food to oatmeal on me and I did not order no oatmeal and something was put in the oatmeal I did not eat that I thought something may be wrong with the oatmeal;. somebody in this family didn’t want me with my babies at all.