Posts tagged ‘child abused’

December 17, 2013

DO I LOOK LIKE ANY OF THEM PEOPLE? WHY DO THOSE PEOPLE KEEP TARGETING ME

These people are not my family.ImageDO I LOOK LIKE ANY OF THEM PEOPLE? WHY DO THOSE PEOPLE KEEP TARGETING ME AND FOCUSING ON ME FOR THE MONEY? THAT IS NOT MY FAMILY ONLY MY TWO SONS ARE MY KIDS THAT IS MY SON ALEXANDER AND MY SON VINCENT, I DON’T KNOW ABOUT THOSE OTHER PEOPLE THEY NEVER DID TREATED ME LIKE I WAS RELATED TO THEM THEY DON’T DO THAT.

This is the family I did not belong too this family did sacrifice me for being an unwanted child with Albinism, I was not safe in Carmella Elizabeth Pumphrey Barber and Nelson Reed Barber family they all treated me very cruel and they treated me like an outcast and an outsider and I want to live and I want to be let the Hell alone I got a right to live my life the people put all kinds of mentally ill labels on me and that is an insult to my intelligence I am not no delusional disorder. DO I LOOK LIKE ANY OF THEM PEOPLE?

March 29, 2013

ALL THIS BS, BECAUSE I WAS AN UNWANTED ALBINO BABY GIRL

ImageAfter severals years of abuse you can’t get over that, THE PEOPLE IN THIS FAMILY DO GOT SOMETHING AGAINST PEOPLE WITH ALBINISM I KNOW BECAUSE THE FAMILY PEOPLE REALLY DO GOT A SERIOUS PERSONAL VENDETTA AGAINST ME. THEY DEHUMANIZED ME, THEY USED ME AND THEY DELIBERATELY STOOD IN MY WAY THEY WOULD NOT LET ME LIVE MY LIFE THE WAY I WANTED TO, THEY BLOCKED ME FROM WORKING A DECENT PAID CAREER WITH A WELL PAID SALARY, ALL THIS BECAUSE I WAS AN UNWANTED ALBINO BABY GIRL AND WAS TAKEN TO THE WRONG DAMN FAMILY. It is not my fault I was taken home where I was not welcomed the entire family did not even accept me from the beginning that is where all my troubles began at.and I was at their mercy and the people on the mother side they never took the time with me. The people on the step father side side of the family they never too the time with me either, I don’t even have not one single cousin communicating with me not at all and the whole family is like this with me I am not lying about that I don’t think I am a child. I am a grown women with a mother who always did treat me like a child and she still treat me like a child and there was nothing wrong with me but she told me she wanted to tell me how I got all messed up and it was about some white people she had in her family and I don’t know them at all and then I was told to dye my hair black and I was forced to dye my hair brown for several years and wear brown wigs until I stopped doing that and I should not have had to dye my blonde hair an not wear no wigs, I got a right to wear my hair blond that is my true hair color and I was called derogatory names Albino and some of those people on the mother side of the family said they don’t have no ALBINISM IN THEIR FAMILY I WAS TOLD THAT I AM NOT LYING AT ALL. I AM TELLING THE TRUTH AND NO I CAN NOT GET OVER IT AFTER BEING ABUSED FOR NOTHING I DID TO THEM PEOPLE FOR FAR TOO LONG and for decades and for that LENGTH OF TIME DON’T MAKE NO KIND OF SENSE AT ALL.
What am I supposed to do just put up and shut up for unprovoked vigilante bias crimes done to me for nothing and the did man handle my children too, they nearly killed one of my children and I had to flee far too many addresses amd I didn’t bother nobody and I did mind my very own business. and I made the big mistake of telling the mother I was may relocate she did tell me if I move somewhere else.I will just get the same thing and I might as well stay here in Chicago IL
The people won’t let me alone and I am not even bothering them at all. they did destroy I always had trouble getting paid jobs they always stood in my way and when I wanted to work when I was a teenager the mother did not back me up at all.I got excuses instead, I got stuck with babysitting and house work. this went on against me for decades and now I am the only person in the family with out any income but everybody got income. no I can not just get over it because was very criminal from the beginning. it is wrong and where I’m at I can’t get a medicaid card and I don’t have any income I am telling the truth.

December 23, 2012

People Really Need To Understand That Child Abuse Do Happen To Innocent Children

We were at our grandmother’s home on the mother side of the family and I asked her for a glass of milk and she put an object it was a feen-o-ment pill in it and I looked under the glass and it was there, I told her I’m not going to drink that stuff, Now what if I had dranked that tanted milk, used the bathroom on myself in Nelson Barber’s car because of what Carmella Barber’s mother done, Nelson would have killed me because of what somebody else did to me, I WAS NOT SAFE IN THIS FAMILY, I gave that crap back to her; I am so glad I gave it back to the grandmother, Tyrone Barber tried to force sour kool aid that was unsweetened down my throat,he threatened to whoop me with a belt I told him if he don’t leave me alone I was going to tell Nelson and Muff on him. they spat in my face, they spat in my hair, they forced me to dye my hair brown and they forced me to wear brown wigs for several years, I was not going to dye my hair black because I wanted to be myself and then one day I used COPPER TONE TAN product on my skin trying to fit this damn cursed family and THIS FAMILY STILL REJECTS ME AND THEY WILL NEVER LEAVE ME ALONE AND THEY WILL NOT BACK OFF AT ALL AND THIS FAMILY WILL NEVER LEAVE MY CHILDREN ALONE AT ALL AND THEM PEOPLE IN THIS FAMILY WILL NEVER BACK OFF BOTH OF MY CHILDREN AND THEY NEVER WANTED NONE OF MY CHILDREN IN THIS FAMILY FROM THE DAY I HAD MY KID THEY JUST SIMPLY DON’T WANT ME AND MY KIDS IN THIS DAMN FAMILY AT ALL AND HIDE BEHIND THE CHURCH.
I gotten hurt being played with like a toy and an object and they always did treated me like I AM AN ALBINO COCK ROACH AND A WHITE RAT and they treated my children like they are COCK ROACHES AND RATS TOO and Clara Pumphrey she really always did hate my gut as if I did something to her no I did not do a damn thing to her at all. and she got a set up on me she hates me really just that much and I really do wish she didn’t invite me in her house like that she soaked the chicken and the potatoes in an enormous amount of salt,Clara did that on purpose I did not eat that Shit it was poison. and several years later.before I left the hospital with my newborn babies somebody swiched breakfast food on me at the hospital, I ordered regular food but they switched the food to oatmeal on me and I did not order no oatmeal and something was put in the oatmeal I did not eat that I thought something may be wrong with the oatmeal;. somebody in this family didn’t want me with my babies at all.

November 20, 2012

HOW CAN I HAVE MY PEACE AND MY DIGNITY?

THE  JANUARY-7-2013 DATE,  I DON’T LIKE THAT DATE FOR A SAFETY CONCERN, I GOT A RIGHT TO.THINGS DON’T LOOK GOOD AT ALL FOR ME AND MY FAMILY, THE FAMILY IS A PROBLEM FOR ME, THEY TREATED ME LIKE AN OUTCAST,AN OUTSIDER AND AN OUTSIDE BITCH, THEY USED TRACKING NUMBERS ON ME LIKE I AM A RARE ANIMAL THAT IS WHAT THE FAMILY PEOPLE ALWAYS TREATED ME LIKE, THOSE PEOPLE DON’T WANT ME TO HAVE NO KIND OF MONEY,  IF I TRY TO GET MY OWN MONEY LIKE A PAID JOB THEY PUT PEOPLE ON ME, BECAUSE THEY DID THAT BEFORE;  I WAS LET GO WITHOUT NOTICE, AND I ALWAYS HAD A HARD TIME GETTING A JOB, I TRY TO GET DISABILITY, THE FAMILY PEOPLE WHO TARGETED ME , THEY PICKED  JANUARY 7-2013  FOR AN APPOINTMENT DATE, LOOK AT ALL THE  # 7,11,13,14,25,28,49,65,  LOOK AT ALL THE ALBINOS AND THEWHITE BITCHES NAMES THEM PEOPLE AND THEIR HELPERS CALLED ME OVER THE YEARS TO THIS DECADE FOR NOTHING I DID NOT EVEN DO TO NONE OF THEM CRUEL AND HATEFUL PEOPLE.THEY WANT TO DRAG ME OFF TO A DIFFERENT CITY I DON’T KNOW NOTHING ABOUT,AND I DON’T KNOW ANYONE IN THAT TOWN FOR AN APPOINTMENT DATE 1-7-2013  THEY ARE RACE HATERS , I AM NOT WHITE, I AM A BLACK AMERICAN PERSON , DON’T USE ME FOR NO WHITE PERSON,  DID THEY EVER PICK ON A WHITE PERSON? BUT THOSE FAMILY DID PICK ON ME FOR SEVERAL YEARS, NOT JUST YEARS AGO

July 3, 2012

The Worst Nightmares I Lived Since My Childhood

 The worst night mares that I had in my life was being sabotaged by family members starting from the parents who denied me since the day I was born and I gotten hurt by a number of surprised, extreme hatred and too much fright and the villainous and bias hate crimes that was done to me for several years to the point to where the so called mother and father deliberately brain washed me and they both misled me from the very start and the mother, they pulled me out of school from my kindergarten class and I was shift off to 949 W Huron and I found myself on my need all bend over while a male was on me behind me and that was very inappropriate touching and that happened in the grandmother’s home and this happened when I was taken out of my kindergarten class room and I never got to complete kindergarten at all. and I was kept out of school until I returned back to school at age 7.5 years old and I had to start all over again and I was nearly 3 years behind in grade school and I got picked on and bullied in grade school and high school they set me up for nothing I did not even do to none of them people at all. I was taken to where people did drink and gotten drunk and leaving kids behind that was very wrong and very dangerous I was used by the adults all my whole entire life and they made me a family scapegoat and a people scapegoat too and they controlled my life and I was hurt by the offense and several life threatening situations and the gossip and the ambushment traps. they treated me like an outcast and an outsider.
I was born in a seriously dysfunctional family where some people with problems that need to be addressed and corrected even before I was born; this problem have gotten me into a world of trouble with some of them people and also I have been having problems from my grandmother’s former husband, John McCoy’s grandchildren from the McCoy family and his grandson Ralph James, his aunts are Rochelle Saymore and Lauraine Gordan, these people are not related to us by blood at all. I was a young adult age 20 when my grandmother told me about an incident at the time I was only just a 5 year old baby girl; my grandmother Carmella McCoy was babysitting me for my parents. Barbara McCoy James had several young babies of her own, including Ralph James, both women left the home there was only just babies neglected and left behind and there was no adult supervision of the babies and there was no one there at all. I was the oldest at that time, I didn’t know anything about it. there was a new born baby boy about a month old named Markham James, The McCoy people keep blaming me for all of the adult responsibiities. the child was jumped all over and as a result the child died.
everybody said why didn’t Charlene stop everybody from jumping all over him at that time. They are still rentlessly angry at me for this. Those two women left the home to get a drink they were gone for long hours. I am really tire of paying for something that was not my fault from the begining. that was the adult responsibilities and I am wondering why do they keep blaming me for this; this is not fair to my family and I at all, It is very to dangerous to leave small children unsupervised and home alone. I am really tire of paying for something that was not my fault from the begining. that was the adult responsibilities and I am wondering why do they keep blaming me for this; this is not fair to my family and I. It is very to dangerous to leave small children unsupervised and home alone.
We were at our grandmother’s home on the mother side of the family and I asked her for a glass of milk and she put an object it was a feen-o-ment pill in it and I looked under the glass and it was there, I told her I’m not going to drink that stuff, I gave it back to the grandmother, Tyrone Barber tried to force sour kool aid that was unsweetened down my throat,he threatened to whoop me with a belt I told him if he don’t leave me alone I was going to tell Nelson and Muff on him. they spat in my face, they spat in my hair, they forced me to dye my hair brown and they forced me to wear brown wigs for several years, I was not going to dye my hair black because I wanted to be myself and then one day I used COPPER TONE TAN product on my skin trying to fit this damn cursed family and THIS FAMILY STILL REJECTS ME AND THEY WILL NEVER LEAVE ME ALONE AND THEY WILL NOT BACK OFF AT ALL AND THIS FAMILY WILL NEVER LEAVE MY CHILDREN ALONE AT ALL AND THEM PEOPLE IN THIS FAMILY WILL NEVER BACK OFF BOTH OF MY CHILDREN AND THEY NEVER WANTED NONE OF MY CHILDREN IN THIS FAMILY FROM THE DAY I HAD MY KID THEY JUST SIMPLY DON’T WANT ME AND MY KIDS IN THIS DAMN FAMILY AT ALL AND HIDE BEHIND THE CHURCH.
I gotten hurt being played with like a toy and an object and they always did treated me like I AM AN ALBINO COCK ROACH AND A WHITE RAT and they treated my children like they are COCK ROACHES AND RATS TOO and Clara Pumphrey she really always did hate my gut as if I did something to her no I did not do a damn thing to her at all. and she got a set up on me she hates me really just that much and I really do wish she didn’t invite me in her house like that she soaked the chicken and the potatoes in an enormous amount of salt,Clara did that on purpose I did not eat that Shit it was poison. and several years later.before I left the hospital with my newborn babies somebody swiched breakfast food on me at the hospital, I ordered regular food but they switched the food to oatmeal on me and I did not order no oatmeal and something was put in the oatmeal I did not eat that I thought something may be wrong with the oatmeal;. somebody in this family didn’t want me with my babies at all.

June 18, 2012

IT WAS THE ABUSE BECAUSE I WAS UNWANTED BY THE FAMILY

Biology servers us right all it takes is a man and a female and it takes two to tangle,then why both the parents who both denied me at birth had no kind of love for me at all. I really do not know if they are really my parents or not and why did they torture me for several years for nothing and for nothing I didn’t do to any of them people;  I started kindergarten class in 1961 and they interrupted my stay in kindergarten school and I was not allowed to complete school, and I was nearly 3 years behind in grade school and that was not my fault either and there was a plan to keep me in
school untill I reach age 28 by the time I got out of school, I am so glad it did’t happen that way because these people in this family hated me to the point to where everybody in the family was able to go to school and work and get paid without problems,  I was the one who they picked on. they blamed me for things that the grown adults did before I even thought of being born and I could have died before I was born and what the hell did I have to do with the way I was born and why did them people bring me in this family when they never did want nothing to do with me from the beginning,  all the siblings are dark tan and brown skin and I am the only one in this family who has an ivory white skin and blonde hair and  I really don’t know if they are really my parents or not and why did Carmella Barber pick on me for nothing I did to her and her people pick on me and call me all kinds of racist and derogatory names and dancing eyes and all I ever heard from them family people was Charlene is an ALBINO THIS AND AN ALBINO THAT, Carmella the women who I thought was my nother she did not tell me that girls get their periods every month, she waited until after it happened to me it was wrong that was her responsible to tell me, the people in this family don’t tell me nothing because they don’t want me to know a damn thing just be a dumb bell because they didn’t want me at all and I can tell that. and  Girls should be told about the monthly period or explain it in a way that they can understand so they won’t get shamed and embarrassed and picked on forever and a life time of pure hell for deeds they didn’t do;  them people in this family always told me to dye that SHIT BLACK AND I DYED MY HAIR BROWN FOR SEVERAL YEARS AND I WAS FORCED TO WEAR BROWN WIGS AND I DID MY VERY BEST TO FIT IN THIS DAMN KIND OF FAMILY AND Carmella Barber always hated me because she never wanted me for her child and she isolated me and her sister Clara Pumphrey always controlled me behind my back and she is very dangerously sneaky against me and all of them treated me like a child and they always did meddle in all of my personal business, they did get my business behind my back and they meddled in all of my afairs and all of them people pose a serious threat to my safety and they pose a serious threat to my children’s personal safety and them people man handled me and they man handled my son Alexander so bad to the degree and point where them people damn near killed him in July-28-2008 and what the hell did a man Sherman get in my son Alexander’s face and ask him is he keeping his nose clean look at all the other people in this family they not keeping their nose clean and all them people do is talk about me and my children and pick on me and my kids because them people did not want me in this family well I didn’t tell the so called mother and father to bring me to this family I didn’t just walk in their family that is not fair to me and that is not fair to my children.  It was very wrong for all those grown adults who didn’t want me take me home and they robbed me of my innocence and they robbed me of my dignity and they robbed my children of their persona dignity too.  They way them people always acted towards me and the way they act towards my children they don’t want me to live at all and they don’t want both of my children to live at all either, then why they keep picking on me and why they keep picking on my children all they want to see is blood well a punk hit me in my face and gave me a nose bleeding I was wearing eye glasses he could have put my eyes out for nothing I did, he told me I was adopted  them people pose a serious threat to my personal safety and they pose a serious threat to my children’s personal safety A GUN AND A CANE WAITING. and why did people put bloody chicken bones in my door way and under my window when I was paying rent at 8921 N 91st Street in Milwaukee WI and when I relocated from that address in 2001, less than one month them people suddenly start putting citations on me with a vehicle that I never did operate and I never did drive the Van at all. all of them people did that to me on purpose and they really did do that deliberately and all them people did mary me off right behind my back and for several years them people always treated me like I was lacking in intelligence and like I did not know no better. This don”t make no damn sense at all;  I got taken to a family by people who really never wanted me bring me into a situation that is very dangerous, wrong and very unfair to me and my children; I didn’t really deserve that at all and nobody bothered to explain nothing to me at all  for several years and for that damn length of time and not one single person didn’t even bother to ask no kind of questions of what is the problem and what did I or what did Charlene do if anything at all.  and it is only right,  Hey I am not wrong at all, that is criminal torture and that causes mental abuse and a lot of disstress and heart problems and stress, and STRESS REALLY DO KILL. ESPECIALLY  IT’S NOT MY FAUL AND THE FAMILY DID ABANDONED ME FOR DECADES NOW. I DIDN’T NEED THIS FAMILY FOR MY GUARDIAN THEY DON’T CARE NOTHING ABOUT ME AT ALL AND I AND MY CHILDREN DON’T NEED THESE FAMILY PEOPLE FOR THEIR GUARDIAN EITHER THEM PEOPLE IN THIS DON’T GIVE A DAMN ABOUT MY CHILDREN EITHER. ALL OF THAT IS CAUSED BY VERY HATEFUL, VERY EVIL,MEAN,VERY HOSTILE AND VERY VERY CRUEL PEOPLE, IT IS VERY WRONG FROM THE VERY BEGINNING, TO BLAME AND PICK ON CHILDREN, ESPECIALLY GROWN ADULTS, YOU DON’T BLAME THE CHILD AND YOU DON’T BEAT UP ON THE CHILD, DON’T BEAT THE CHILDREN UP.

May 13, 2012

A Child Is Born Innocent

Anybody who don’t want a child takes a child home to their family. They are robbing the child’s right of his or her life and their future. They will be very hostile and  very cruel towards that child and no child is beneath  Nobody like that I don’t care who they are. We are people and it doesn’t matter.and Patricia Metcalf Barber waited 13 years before she took me to her house,  there is a sibling rivalry, I am wondering why would you move in that person’s home when they never liked you. she told me When he or she leaves town, you can stay in my place and when I ask how much will she charge me to stay in her house he told me I won’t charge you nothing.   Houses aren’t free to live in somebody got to pay for the house she told me that;  what are they getting at? And she never did  ike me at all. That doesn’t looks safe. It’s a set-up and it’s a trap. but and after she told me I can stay in her house for free.later she sent me a text message telling me House is expensive to up keep and my brother and I don’t have a clue but I had my house first and I had to flee for nothing I did to no one.when I was in Milwaukee Wisconsin I purchased my home first in a neighbor where I didn’t know anyone there and I had to flee because of several fires and other incidents and it was unprovoked and I didn’t provoked that trouble at all, I was minding my very own business there  like I always did every since I was a child who was unwanted and I never lived a normal life no way all because of the hatred and hostility against me and yet it was never even explained to me why and I am wondering how to deal with this, I thought I just ask. so many good things been said already I was just wondering. I NEVER HAD NO FAMILY BACK UP.IT IS AS IF I DONE SOMETHING TO SOMEONE AND OR TOOK SOMETHING. I NEVER HAD NO PEACE. AND I COULDN’T EVEN RELAX AT ALL.

March 24, 2012

HELP! I AM AN UNWANTED CHILD,ABUSED AND ABANDONED BY A FAMILY

I AM A HUMAN BEING, I GOT FEELINGS JUST LIKE YOU DO AND I AM VERY TIRED OF BEING PUNISHED BY THIS FAMILY

I didn’t ask to be born here although  I had a right to just like all other babies and I was born an innocent baby just like the rest of the babies; and just because I was born with a genetic condition which is inherited by birth, that was not my fault from the very beginning, I could have died before I was even born like all the other babies,I didn’t even know I was in the world yet; I am not responsible for having albinism and I was NOT THIS FAMILY’S CURSE,THEY JUST DIDN’T WANT ME IN THEIR FAMILY AT ALL; I’m not dumb and I’m not stupid, then why do Carmella Barber who was supposed be a mother to me. SHE HATES ME SO MUCH and I didn’t do anything to her and she always blamed and fault me for her husband and her mother in law for hating her because her mother in law thought she was an albino and I was born with this genetic condition which I was not responsible for.THEY DEHUMANIZED ME from the very start and for nothing that I done to any of them peope FOR NOTHING; SHE told me her mother in law tried to get her killed because of ME that was not my fault;  They didn’t have to take me to their family,Them people should not have taken me to their family at all,THEY SHOULD HAVE LEFT ME BEHIND AND LET ME ALONE; I didn’t pick these people and what do Clara Pumphrey got against me personally,I didn’t do nothing to Clara at all; when she invited me over to her home, she deliberately soaked the chicken and potatoes in an enormous amount of SALT and I didn’t eat that garbage no way, SHE FED ME LIKE A RAT ON PURPOSE I didn’t do nothing to her;this happened late July 1976 shortly right after  I JUST GRADUATED from a Chicago public high school in JUNE 1976.then Clara  asked me in front of a women neighbor of hers, Charlene do you think I am much better than your mother and father and do I like her better then my parents, when I didn’t tell her what she wanted to hear she gotten real angry,nasty and ballistic with me. and she picked a bad fight and an argument with me in her home;Clara never even tried to help me get a paid job of any and Clara is the one who asked me while I was a littlre girl only age 15,Charlene are you going to bend over and let somebody get it so you can HAVE A BABY THAT LOOKS LIKE YOU and she never gave me a time of day;SHE HATES MY GUTS a so called sibling Patricia Barber Matcalf REALLY HATED MY GUTS and she made the father pick up a broom in my face,he nearly hit me in my face with the BLUE BROOM STICK when I was only a little girl age 12 and age 16 he held the broom in my face 4 years later and he told me to take my glasses off because he did not want get caught he was holding the broom stick like a person holding the baseball bat ready to slam me in my face with the broom and Patricia was very quiet untill Nelson walked in the front door,Patricia started to cry and I did see him snatch the broom from behind the kitchen door and the mother was at her paid job the man could have killed me for nothing I done; he did not ask me any questions he was supposed to asked me and give me a chance to explaim it. He didn’t do that and while he terrified the hell out of me,Patricia suddenly gotten real quiet, Patricia was listening to see what was happening to me in my bedroom, Nelson told me next he will KNOCK ME BLACK, I am really wondering why do a whole entire family of people hate my guts for nothing and why nobody never did try to keep me safe in this family and keep me out of harms way but instead every thing was my fault and every thing my Shit. You don’t never ever blame a child no matter who they are and no matter what they got, children are people too and they do have human rights. they violated me from my child hood and things did not get no better for me instead things gotten much more worst, they always treated me like a slow and a retarded child and they CALLED ME CRAZY FOR NOTHING I DONE. even while I am a grown adult and STILL CALL ME CRAZY,BUT LOOK HOW I WAS TREATED. ; I started school at age 5 and they taken me out of school and I went back at age 7 years old and I had to learn how to read and write but them people did not teach me the abc and the 123 s and I had to learn my primary crayon colors and then I had to learn how to spell my own name and I ended up over 3 years behind in school because I didn’t have no proper family back up and they didn’t really care anything about me at all and that was not my fault at all and when I tried to get a real paid job,somebody always stood in my way and I always had bad breaks from the start I was not supported by this family and while I was a youth I expressed that I wanted to work so that I can get paid for working and I  had every right to work and to get paid to work; and if you can’t work then how are you going to pay  your rent,put food on your table,buy your own clothes and shoes and other personal thing for your self and pay your medical bill, and other vital things YOU CAN’T LIVE ON THIN AIR we all need to have something to live on. and when I wanted to work the mother wouldn’t let me work,but all the other kids who worked gotten paid in the summer youth programs and I thought it was good for children to get a supported paid job.especially for those who want to work and support themselves.

September 1976, the so called parents put me out of the home for nothing I done and I was doing house cleaning and Ronald and Patricia was not helping me,I was the only one working and the man launged towards me and he tried to hit again and he called me a yellow bitch I dropped every thing and I left the house for my own personal safety and the so called parents put me out of their home and I didn’t have no paid job and I didn’t have no other personal income and money of my own,they put me on the streets of Chicago,Illinois and I was much too decent for that.and the other sister and her husband had taken me over to grandmother’s home on the mother’s side of the family because I didn’t have no where to go and I never did run with too many people because I need room to escape;our grandmother had taken my bags of clothes and personal belongings and she took me in because I had no where to go and she said Charlene at least you are not out of doors; and that was to save me for my protection and while I was still age 15 years old the mother was cooking on the stove and told me Charlene every women needs her own kitchen and her own bath room.I was too young to date anybody at all.I really feel that everybody just wanted to rush me out of the home and out of the family and that is not treating me like a biological relative at all,NO IT’S NOT; I bonded and I trusted these people and now I do really HATE they took me to this family because I got hurt by the set up FOR NOTHING. THAT IS WRONG, THAT,WAS NOT FAIR TO ME FROM THE START. and what about the time when Patricia called me to so called invite only my children to her son birthday party,she had an excuse,she hated me from the start every since child hood, she said I know that you are busy and I can under,she really didn’t want me there in her apartment and to see what was going on; I am my children’s mother,Alexander and Vincent are my kid, they are not no body else kids. THEM PEOPLE NEVER DID HAVE NO KIND OF MERCY FOR ME AT ALL AND THEY NEVER HAD NO LOVE FOR ME AND MY KIDS AT ALL. THIS IS A CRYING SHAME.

I CAN’T STOMACH THIS ,THEY REALLY  MAKE ME FEEL LIKE DAMAGED COLLATERAL AND THEY  REALLY  MAKE ME FEEL LIKE A HOSTAGE. THIS IS NOTHING BUT PURE HATRED,THIS IS NOT LOVE AT ALL.

this is nothing but unprovoked abuse and unjustified punishment from the start,then why no one never even bothered to tell me why and not one single person even bothered to tell me the truth and I didn’t deserve to be rejected,blamed and punished for me being born with albinism and what about when I was born an innocent baby like all other babies well the father turned his back on me and he was not emotionally available for me to the point to where I ended up looking for DADDY and my children’s father is a daddy figure by more than 30 years my age and that was because I needed LOVE NOT HATRED; they just punished me and they watched me suffer for the deeds that I did not do. I was not wanted by this family at all; then why was I treated very differently and cruely by the family and every thing is my S from start and was picked on for several years and they made fun of me and they treated my children the same way too, and my son Alexander  was so man handled by them people ,they nearly killed him and I had to take my son Vincent from a program because his files were missing,he was not support that way and that was my son fault  and that was not my fault either.I didn’t work there. and he didn’t either; they picked on him too and his files were missing from a day program, there was a safety concern for all 3 of us. and for several years the gossip about me was so serious to the point to where it has caused me great reputational harm and to the point to when I want to communicate and work with other people I am greatly ignored to where a lot of people don’t seem to care to understand and to listen to what I am trying to explain. Every body treated me like a retarded child and a little girl and every body all up in my personal business and all up in my personal life . they don’t even accept me as one of their own relative and I can see that. I can tell, I am not no domb person, I’m not like that and I was abused so badly I had night mares, I even had a low self esteem because of the derogatory and racist name calling that hurted me and for years they called me that, well that was not my fault, I was born with Albinism and that is an inherited genetic condiction and that is not my fault at all, and some of them people said that is not in the family and that’s not my fault either; I really do wish that the people who never wanted me in the first place just leave me alone altogether and just leave my kids alone all every body did was just use me and my children and they always did just walk all over me and my children and them people never had no love for me no way.that because I was notthing to them people and my children are not nothing to them people either and what they think of me, them people think the same way about my kid ,they don’t have any kind of love for my children because my children are nothing to them people. I am wondering why when I needed to be removed from the home for my own protection and my safety why no body came to remove me from the that family that was not right and that is not fair to me. I gotten blamed,abandoned,punished and bullied and the people on Carmella Barber the mother side of the family,they never taken the time with me and the people on Nelson the father side of the family, they never taken the time with me either; It was not my fault and it was not right for them people to just use me for their excuse. I never even lived a normal life. How can anybody have a normal child hood,adult hood and future, with my freedom being very restricted. and I did go to a medical front office training school program and that was sabotaged on me too,things got all changed around. I did lose the SSI income in September 1997 and I was not able to ever get back on it no matter what. and I came back to Chicago Illinois in spring 2003 and I did apply for a medicaid card and they never did give any. and I did apply again in 2011 the letter came back,it said I was not eligible for any,cash assistance,SNAP food stamps and no medical card at all and I don’t even work because I am very sick right now and I have health issues and I need help and no one is willing to help me out; It is a darn crying shame I don’t have a family that I can trust, my health is being neglected I did a lot of volunteer work and unpaid work I tried to help the community in Milwaukee,WI the best way that I could but I should have been help too many years ago and I gave selflessly far too much of my time to others and for others but I am wondering can anybody volunteer their time to help me out please I AM CRYING OUT FOR HELP can anybody please help me out and it is a crying shame because I had no steady income since I lost my suppmental income in September 1997 and the hatred against me really did put me at a total lost and I nearly lost one of my children and the parent don’t talk to me and the siblings don’t want nothing to do with me either, that is the whole family. I don’t feel really confortable with them no way because they never did approve of me from the beginning and so it is best for me to just stay out of their way. it is really rough on me and this is not too good. I really do need to get a break and a make over. I was born in a seriously dysfunctional family where some people with problems that need to be addressed and corrected even before I was born; this problem have gotten me into a world of trouble with some of them people and also I have been having problems from my grandmother’s former husband, John McCoy’s grandchildren from the McCoy family and his grandson Ralph James, Rochelle Saymore and Lauraine Gordan are Ralph H James aunts these people are not related to us by blood at all. I was a young adult age 20 when my grandmother told me about an incident at the time I was only just a 5 year old baby girl; my grandmother Carmella McCoy was baby sitting me for my parents. Barbara McCoy James had several young babies of her own,including Ralph James, both women left the home there was only just babies neglected and left behind and there was no adult supervision of the babies and there was no one there at all. I was the oldest at that time,I didn’t know anything about it. there was a new born baby boy about a month old named Markham James, The McCoy people keep blaming me for all of the adult responsibiities. the child was jumped all over and as a result the child died.
everybody said why didn’t Charlene stop everybody from jumping all over him at that time. They are still rentlessly angry at me for this. those two women left the home to get a drink.and they were gone for long hours. I am really tire of paying for something that was not my fault from the begining. that was the adult responsibilities and I am wondering why do they keep blamming me for this; this is not fair to my family and I at at. It is very to dangerous to leave small children unsupervised and home alone. Also I want to make another point, They are still rentlessly angry at me for this. those two women left the home to get a drink.and they were gone for long hours. I am really tire of paying for something that was not my fault from the begining. that was the adult responsibilities and I am wondering why do they keep blamming me for this; this is not fair to my family and I at at. It is very to dangerous to leave small children unsupervised and home alone. Also IThey are still rentlessly angry at me for this. those two women left the home to get a drink.and they were gone for long hours. I am really tire of paying for something that was not my fault from the begining. that was the adult responsibilities and I am wondering why do they keep blamming me for this; this is not fair to my family and I at at. It is very to dangerous to leave small children unsupervised and home alone. Also I want to make another point, July the summer of 1967, I was just only 11 years old, while I was playung with friends in the neighborhood a husky boy ran up to me and he hit me in my face with his fist and gae me a nose bleeding; I was wearing eye glasses and if he broke my glasses he would have put my eyes out. He said I was adopted. and when I was age 12 Nelson picked up a brook stick on me he was about to beat me with the broom stick and when I was 15 years of age he slapped me in my left eye while I was trying to explain something to him I heard a PULP sound and I saw star lights in my eyes I was so scared for my life I thought I was about to die and I had to put a cold towel over my eye because I didn’t want my eyes to swell and then I ran and said Yo MaMa, I ran under the bed and he beat me in my face, the man could have killed me for nothing. And when I was 16 years old the so-call sibling rivalry Patricia she was quiet she was not even crying about nothing at all; but she waited untill her father walked in the front room door and then I heard her she did suddenly start to cry to Nelson and I saw him rush in the kitchen and he snatched a broom stick from behind the kitchen door. and I can tell Patricia always hated me from the start, she never did accept me for a sister at all; . I am not domb I’m not stupid. and I do know that every body think everything is all my S and every body think I am lacking in intelligence. and what about the time when I tried to talk to Patricia she told me Charlene shut up with your mental instituted self and that was really uncalled for and they don’t want me to communicate with other people.I got a right to talk to other people,I am a person too just like everybody else,I got a right to my difference too and I do know better; I am not an ignorant person. I”m NOT like that.. Because of this I am now at a personal lost and is deliverately being financially disadvantaged. and where I am living I am having trouble getting a medicaid card of any kind.and I also feel that when Itry to get a job, I have problems either I don’t hear from a company or I am let go and on a short notice.and also in 2006 ,I had a caregiver job and in July 2006 the IRS sent me a notice informing me that someone filed a 1040 form ending December 31-2001 bearing my social security number on it.and they picked up my children on the form and they was the head of household. and I did not do that to myself
and where I am living I am having trouble getting a medicaid card of any kind.and I also feel that when Itry to get a job, I have problems either I don’t hear from a company or I am let go and on a short notice.and also in 2006 ,I had a caregiver job and in July 2006 the IRS sent me a notice informing me that someone filed a 1040 form ending December 31-2001 bearing my social security number on it.and they picked up my children on the form and they was the head of household. and I did not do that to myself
. When my son Alexander was in Warren Park 6700 N Damen Ave, he mysteriously gotten away from here on July 28,2008 and ended up in a hospital and he was not looking so good at all. He was not eating, not drinking any fluids, his teet was clenched (jaws is jammed). He would not talk to me at all, and his eyes was rolled bck to his head, I did see that. he was in Illinois Masonic Hospital and e was floating between 17 different hospitals and nursing homes and treated like trash. as a result of that; there were bruises, scars and holes poked in his legs I did not do that to my own son. that happened when he was suddenly in someone else’s place and care. he was not at my home when all of this happened to him.and not no one even talk to me about it; my son had to be put on life support and a feeding tube. I will never forget all of the pure hatred and hell them people put me and my kids through over the years, they blamed me since I was only a 5 year old baby girl and for grown people responsibilities. and there are very jealous and racist blacks in the family.

I did not forget while I was being abused in that home; I was a little girl, a growing youth and a teenager, Tyrone Barber  used to sneak up behind me and touch me in an inappropriate manner he was wrong for doing that and he was not supposed to touch me and squeeze my personal breast; he called my breast knobs,I felt very uncomfortable because it was very wrong he didn’t even apologize for that and later years he was arrested for pedophilia and registered with Illinois state.
I know because I been put through pure hell in this family and I was never wanted from birth; the father denied me and the mother denied me as their child that was not fair to me at all I am a person too, I have feelings like everybody else do my children and I don’t appriciate being treated like an object with no feelings and I don’t appriciate them people in this family feeding me and my children like a rat. We are people too, I don’t care what we are to them people they are not no better then me nor my children and I don’t appreciate being BULLIED by a family who I did not pick and choose to be taken too and I was born an innocent baby and my children were born innocent babies like all the rest of the babies too. I can see that I have my difference too and I had a right to my difference and this family never even thought enough of me to respect my rights to be different no matter how different I was and they don’t have no respect for my children just because they are my children and they look like me and their father. THAT IS TOO MUCH HATRED AGAINST ME AND MY CHILDREN FOR NOTHING. no one is perfect; IS EVERYBODY ELSE KEEPING THEIR NOSE CLEAN?

a family who only treats me like an outcast and an outsider, I been called racist derogatory names like albino, dye that sht black,dancing eyes,yellow gal,white girl,yellow bitch and white bitches too and yes by black people but it got started from the family first, I am a black women of color I didn’t deserve no abuse; I GOT  HURT BEING DICTATED TO AND I DIDN’T NEED TO BE CONTROLLED,I am not a criminal; there is nothing wrong with me I am not like that. I am really sick of the siege.

THEN THE NAME CALLNGS SPREADED TO THE SCHOOLS I WAS ATTENDING AND i GOT PICKED ON AND BULLIED THERE TOO, SOMETIMES,THEY SLAM DOORS IN MY FACE ,SAYING WE DON’T LET ALBINOS IN SOMEBODY TOLD THEM TO DO THAT TO ME ON PURPOSE, FOLKS PLEASE DON’T IGNORE ME I AM NOT LACKING IN ANY INTELLIGENCE, EVEN A 2 YEAR OLD CAN TELL SOMEBODY DON’T LIKE THEM AND THAT’S A BABY.THEY TORTURED ME FOR NOTHING, I GOT HURT BY THE CONFLICTS AND I GOT HURT BEING USED AND THEY TARGETED ME FOR NOTHING, THEY IMPERSONATED ME ON PURPOSE. I GOT HURT BEING TOYED WITH LIKE I AM AN OBJECT AND I AM TIRED OF BEING HURT AND PUT DOWN. I GOT PEOPLE RIGHTS TOO; I DON’T CARE WHAT I GOT. THEY DON’T CARE IF I LIVE OR DIE AND THEY DON’T CARE NOTHING ABOUT MY CHILDREN EITHER BECAUSE THEY ARE NOTHING TO THIS FAMILY,EVERYBODY LOOK AT ELSE’S STORY I AM NOT ANY DIFFERENT.AND THEY TOOK MY BREAD AWAY.

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