Posts tagged ‘child abuse’

September 2, 2013

THE FAMILY REMOVED THEMSELVES FROM ME SEVERAL YEARS AGO

Imagemyself Charlene and sons  Alexander & Vincent 001 - CopyI am not no crazy person like the so-called parents called me they were the ones who always did physical, emotion, mental and psychologically abused me for 57 years of my life the so-called family removed themselves from me since birth, they both denied me and they turned their backs on me, they did torture me for decades and I should not have to be ashamed of myself born with albinism, and forced to wear a brown hair wigs and dye my hair brown because the family people kept teasing me and picking on me because I was born different they injured me that way and they exploited me for many years and they nearly killed my son for nothing because they did target both of my children and they always targeted me first several years before I had my children and when I was only a little girl a teen ager I was not the type who was in a relationship with males I was in school trying to complete my education and for a strange reason that abuse and the racist derogatory name callings followed me even in the high schools and I still did not bother no darn body I was not no trouble maker. SOMEBODY TELL ME HOW DID A BLACK WOMEN GET ON A CTA L TRAIN IN CHICAGO, IL ,SOMEBODY I DID NOT EVEN KNOW AT ALL HOW DID SHE KNOW MY NAME WAS CH, SHE ASKED ME WAS MY NAME CH I DID NOT ANSWER HER AT FIRST BUT WHEN SHE ME DO YOU HAV A SISTER NAME D I TOLD HER YES I WAS REALLY RELUCTANT I DID NOT UNDERSTAND HOW DID SHE KNOW MY NAME WHEN I NEVER SAW THE WOMEN BEFORE NO I DID NOT, THIS FAMILY EXPLOITED ME VERY BADLY, I CAN NOT GET MY BENEFITS I BEEN TAKEN TO THE WRONG AND THEY ARE STILL TARGETING ME AND THEY ARE TARGETING MY CHILDREN, THEY HINDERED MY GETTING APPROVED FOR SSI AND MEDICAID AND I AM NOT WORKING, HOW CAN I MOVE ON WITH MY OWN LIFE AND GET PASS THEM PEOPLE WHEN I DON’T HAVE NOT ONE SINGLE PERSON HERE IN CHICAGO, IL EVEN SUPPORTIVE OF ME,?
THE FAMILY PEOPLE ARE VERY NARCISSISTIC PEOPLE DO ANYBODY KNOW SOMETHING ABOUT THEM KIND AND I DID MOVE OUT OF STATE FOR THE FIRST TIME IN THE 90s but things did not change because the family people did not leave me alone, and they did not leave my children alone and they don’t want me with my kids. I was only telling the truth because I do not want nothing to happen to me, they restricted my freedom and they took away my human rights and dignity those people do not respect no law authorities not when it comes to me no they do not. the counseling help is not free don’t think I didn’t try I did try the people are standing in my way I am not in their way, and nobody here do not want to help me.

May 24, 2013

I REALLY WISH THE FAMILY PEOPLE HAVE LEFT ME BEHIND

myself Charlene and sons  Alexander & Vincent 001 - CopyI don’t appreciate Carmella E Barber and Nelson R Barber taking me to their family at all I really wish they did not do me like that I think they should have left me.
They should have let someone else have me, because I am God’s child and I am a person who got feelings, and if they had done the right thing and gave me a second chance of life with a family who may have had a possible future for me, I believe I may not have been bothered with no inside enemies, and other people who are stupid enough to help them, I am not dumb and I’m not stupid and I am certainly not crazy. they so called parents always did called me CRAZY, they always threatened to take me to a school counselor, a psychiatrist to find if I’m CRAZY OR NOT, they said it they find out I am CRAZY THEY WILL PUT ME IN A MENTAL INSTITUTION, AND AN AUDY HOME FOR BAD AND GIRLS, THAT WAS NOT FAIR TO ME AT ALL. Carmella and Nelson did not do their daughters and sons like they picked and they chosen me,
because both of the parents did not want me in their family from the beginning, THEN WHY DO THE ENTIRE FAMILY PEOPLE REALLY DO HATE MY GUTS PERSONALLY, AND THE FAMILY PEOPLE REALLY HATE MY SON Alexander and MY SON Vincent, I was told my name is on their house, I did not sign no papers, I did not see no documentation of that, because nobody did not show me nothing at all, I do not no the situation to that, If my name is on that house, I want my name off that house I don’t want nothing to do with the people at all and I want to really left alone altogether, I did not benefit being here in this family, I suffered in shame and I did suffer in silenced, and over 50 years of nightmares and BS.

March 29, 2013

ALL THIS BS, BECAUSE I WAS AN UNWANTED ALBINO BABY GIRL

ImageAfter severals years of abuse you can’t get over that, THE PEOPLE IN THIS FAMILY DO GOT SOMETHING AGAINST PEOPLE WITH ALBINISM I KNOW BECAUSE THE FAMILY PEOPLE REALLY DO GOT A SERIOUS PERSONAL VENDETTA AGAINST ME. THEY DEHUMANIZED ME, THEY USED ME AND THEY DELIBERATELY STOOD IN MY WAY THEY WOULD NOT LET ME LIVE MY LIFE THE WAY I WANTED TO, THEY BLOCKED ME FROM WORKING A DECENT PAID CAREER WITH A WELL PAID SALARY, ALL THIS BECAUSE I WAS AN UNWANTED ALBINO BABY GIRL AND WAS TAKEN TO THE WRONG DAMN FAMILY. It is not my fault I was taken home where I was not welcomed the entire family did not even accept me from the beginning that is where all my troubles began at.and I was at their mercy and the people on the mother side they never took the time with me. The people on the step father side side of the family they never too the time with me either, I don’t even have not one single cousin communicating with me not at all and the whole family is like this with me I am not lying about that I don’t think I am a child. I am a grown women with a mother who always did treat me like a child and she still treat me like a child and there was nothing wrong with me but she told me she wanted to tell me how I got all messed up and it was about some white people she had in her family and I don’t know them at all and then I was told to dye my hair black and I was forced to dye my hair brown for several years and wear brown wigs until I stopped doing that and I should not have had to dye my blonde hair an not wear no wigs, I got a right to wear my hair blond that is my true hair color and I was called derogatory names Albino and some of those people on the mother side of the family said they don’t have no ALBINISM IN THEIR FAMILY I WAS TOLD THAT I AM NOT LYING AT ALL. I AM TELLING THE TRUTH AND NO I CAN NOT GET OVER IT AFTER BEING ABUSED FOR NOTHING I DID TO THEM PEOPLE FOR FAR TOO LONG and for decades and for that LENGTH OF TIME DON’T MAKE NO KIND OF SENSE AT ALL.
What am I supposed to do just put up and shut up for unprovoked vigilante bias crimes done to me for nothing and the did man handle my children too, they nearly killed one of my children and I had to flee far too many addresses amd I didn’t bother nobody and I did mind my very own business. and I made the big mistake of telling the mother I was may relocate she did tell me if I move somewhere else.I will just get the same thing and I might as well stay here in Chicago IL
The people won’t let me alone and I am not even bothering them at all. they did destroy I always had trouble getting paid jobs they always stood in my way and when I wanted to work when I was a teenager the mother did not back me up at all.I got excuses instead, I got stuck with babysitting and house work. this went on against me for decades and now I am the only person in the family with out any income but everybody got income. no I can not just get over it because was very criminal from the beginning. it is wrong and where I’m at I can’t get a medicaid card and I don’t have any income I am telling the truth.

September 20, 2012

THE CHILD ABUSE AGAINST ME IS NOT STOPPING AT ALL

I was never safe with these family people from the very beginning, all of them people are against me. they been that way towards me for several yearsl. 1 the people dehumanized me and they set me up for other people turning their backs on me 2 the so called mother isolated me from other people. 3 taken me out of my kindergarten class and I was not allowed to complete kindergarten. 4 they kept me nearly 3 years behind in school grade and I lost peers. 5 the man who denied me had guardianship over me and he really hated my guts and he didn’t have no love for me at all because I was nothing to him. 6 the so called mother she always blamed and fault me for everything that was wrong between her and her husband that is because she didn’t want me for her child I wasn’t their darling daughter to them I am an object not worth living that is very strange why all their venomous hatred against me?  7 The family people always did treat me like I am an outcast and an outsider, they never did treat me like a blood line relative no they did notl and they always treated both my children like an outcast and an outsider, they never did treat none of my children like a blood line relative at all and they don’t have albinism in their family at all,  some of the so call mother side people told me that, I DON’T LIKE THE FEELING , THEY CONTROLLED MY LIFE LIKE I AM AN ANIMAL AND THEY FOLLOW ME EVERYWHERE I MOVE AND RELOCATE TO AND THEY HUNT AND TRACK ME DOWN ON PURPOSE LIKE I AM AN ANIMAL,  I GOT A RIGHT TO LIVE MY LIFE THE WAY I WANT TO AND THEY VIOLATED ME ON PURPOSE AND OTHER FAMILY PEOPLE FOLLOWED AND THEY ALL JUMPED ALL OVER ME AND THEY DID ATTACKED MY CHILDREN TOO BEHIND MY BACK AND IF ANY ONE OF MY CHILDREN GO BACK TO ANOTHER HOSPITAL AND ANOTHER NURSING HOME THE PEOPLE WILL KILL HIM THAT IS JUST TO GET BACK AT ME FOR SEVERAL YEARS OF VIOLENT CRIMINAL CHILD ABUSE I SUFFERED FOR NOTHING I EVEN DID. ALL OF THIS BECAUSE Nelson and Carmella Barber took me home.  ALL EVERYBODY DID WAS TALKED ABOUT ME LIKE A DOG. Some of those people spat on me too and I should not have had to dye my hair brown and I should not have been forced to wear brown wigs for several years them people are trying to change my physical image they did not have no damn right to do that to me and they did try to change both my children physical images, I been called far too many ALBINO S AND WHITE BITCHES FOR FAR TOO MANY YEARS

August 14, 2012

I DID NOT HAVE MY PERSONAL FREEDOM AT ALL

The family people never accepted me in their family from the very beginning and they never welcomed me at all, instead they treated me like an albino gorilla that belong in a zoo cage, I was really hurt by criminal dirt bag ugly treatment, they wouldn’t let me live. Several years of my life was really wasted from being psychologically and mentally abused and physically abused by people who should not have dragged me in their damn family and then pick on me and treat me like shit I didn’t walk in their damn family, I got hurt by everything. If anybody don’t believe me that is because it didn’t happen to them at all and child abuse of any form is wrong and is very criminal and the child is at the parents mercy and if that child is really not wanted the child will not be safe at all in that family and don’t let no one in the family ever be on that child side they will get turned against too by several family members they will do it; they will be against yours children just like the family in this family was already against my kids just before they was born and they tried to kidnap my kids like they kidnapped me in this family this is not my family. I want to let the hell alone.
All I got was pure conflicts from these people in this family; when I was born an innocent baby girl like all other babies I was not no different no matter what I was and what I had. I was told the man said I was not his baby, he denied me and he turn his back on me; he walked out of hospital, he could not adapt to me and he was not emotionally available for me. and he really did make me extremely nervous to the point to where my NERVES NEARLY MADE A NERVOUS WRECK AND SOMETIMES I WOULD BREAK OUT WITH NERVE WEPS, I WAS A SICK CHILD FROM THE VERY START AND I GREW UP A VERY SCARED AND A VERY NERVOUS CHILD; because of all of the rejection ,abuse. the use and the abuse and the torture that I suffered and the derogatory name callings I was very hurt by; names like: ALNINO, WHITE GIRL,YELLOW GAL,WHITE HONKY, DANCING EYES, YELLOW BITCHES and WHITE BITCHES TOO. I got picked on and bullied at the grade school and the high school too and I had more than the worst luck with the family I did not ask to be taken ,it was very wrong from the start. The people on the mother side they never took the time with me and the people on the father side they never took the time with me either; and I really do wish I was not taken there at all, but I didn’t have any control, that caused me to look for daddy and a father figure. The mother blamed everything on me to the point to where the whole family never did accept me as a family member. Instead they treated me like an outcast, an outside an outside Bitch. They treated me like an animal and breeder, they didn’t treat me like a person and they act like my children are not my children, they are treating me like I am not my kids mother they treat my kids like they are their kids. NO THEY ARE NOT THEIR KIDS. Them people don’t give a damn about me and my children at all. While I was in the home being abused; them people always threatened to take me to a counselor, a psychiatrist to find out if I am crazy or not. I haven’t done nothing to anyone. I was not a threat to nobody; and not even to myself and I was not a threat to the community at large; I AM THE ONE WHO IS NOT SAFE. Hey I didn’t even know I was in the world yet; I am not responsible for having albinism and I was NOT THIS FAMILY’S CURSE,THEY JUST DIDN’T WANT ME IN THEIR FAMILY AT ALL; I’m not dumb and I’m not stupid, then why do Carmella Barber who was supposed be a mother to me. SHE HATES ME SO MUCH and I didn’t do anything to her and she always blamed and fault me for her husband and her mother in law for hating her because her mother in law thought she was an albino and I was born with this genetic condition which I was not responsible for.THEY DEHUMANIZED ME from the very start and for nothing that I done to any of them peope FOR NOTHING; SHE told me her mother in law tried to get her killed because of ME that was not my fault; They didn’t have to take me to their family, Them people should not have taken me to their family at all, THEY SHOULD HAVE LEFT ME BEHIND AND LET ME ALONE;

August 8, 2012

THEY TOOK ME TO THE WRONG FAMILY,THEY TOYED WITH MY LIFE

I am wondering why did everybody deliberately forget the biology of a male and a female and all it took was a man to zip his pants down and a women to lift up her skirt and make a child and to not want the child and put every blame on a child is very wrong and criminal and have a baby and to not want the child is very wrong and all children need uncondictioal love and respect and a right to keep their personal dignity the way they have a right to and they took it all away from me from the very beginning of my life at the time I didn’t even know I was in the world in 1956 and why would a man deny a child is his anyway and why did the women who I thought was my mother turned on me too. and the siblings rejected me too. they stalked me on my telephone for several years and they always acted like I wasn’t apart of the family, they always looked very down on me and they treated  me like an outcast and an outsider and they are very ashamed of, the mother continues to isolate me from other like she always did and she never wanted me to work and earn my own money and money I don’t even have because of all violence and unprovoked abuses I been put througt for several years that is not no co-incident because it all began ever since I was small and I grew up being so afraid I also was vey shy and I became very withdrawn because of the worst than harsh abused and the social security number that I have did always caused me serious disadvantages and they still treat me like a child and they still keep following me every where I like I am not lying about and when the cowards scared me right out of Milwaukee, Wisconsin I fled Miss and I had ti keave and ended back in the parents house ,the mother told me I will never make the money Nelson make and I lost my supplemental income because my chldren are getting money from their father that is what she told me, I did not tell her that  because I always knew the social security did not bother a woman who like myself I was not married to my childrens father and I was not entitled to that income. and I didn’t tell her that is the reason why I lost my SSI, no I didn’t say that at all. because the was not the case and I applied for a medicaid card several times and I was told I was not able to get a card and I don’t work and I don’t have no kind of income and this family do not support me financially at all and they are not my guardian they are not supposed to be my guardian at all and they don’t supposed to be my children’s guardian at all it is very wrong and them people are very unreliable people. I DIDN’T NEED NO DAMN GUARDIAN THERE WAS NOT ANYTHING WRONG WITH ME AND I WAS NOT LACKING IN ANY INTELLIGENCE AT ALL, THEY DID THAT SHIT BECAUSE THEY REALLY HATED ME AND THE  FAMIILY PEOPLE TRIED TO TAKE MY CHILDREN AWAY FROM ME, THEY DIDN’T HAVE NO DAMN RIGHT TO STEAL MY CHILDREN I WAS NOT AN UNFIT MOTHER LIKE THE ONE I HAD. A GUARDIAN IS NOT NECESSARY IF THE CHILD IS NOT SEVERELY DISABLED,THEY DID THAT BECAUSE I GOT ALBINISM AND I AM NOT WANTED BY THIS FAMILY AT ALL. THEM PEOPLE IN THIS FAMILY THEY NEVER DID WANT ME IN THIS FAMILY AND THEY STILL DON’T WANT ME IN THEIR FAMILY, WELL I DID NOT TELL THEM TO TAKE ME TO THEIR FAMILY I DIDN’T TELL THEM PEOPLE TO TAKE ME HOME AND NOTHING WAS NOT MY S. THAT IS BS.

June 18, 2012

IT WAS THE ABUSE BECAUSE I WAS UNWANTED BY THE FAMILY

Biology servers us right all it takes is a man and a female and it takes two to tangle,then why both the parents who both denied me at birth had no kind of love for me at all. I really do not know if they are really my parents or not and why did they torture me for several years for nothing and for nothing I didn’t do to any of them people;  I started kindergarten class in 1961 and they interrupted my stay in kindergarten school and I was not allowed to complete school, and I was nearly 3 years behind in grade school and that was not my fault either and there was a plan to keep me in
school untill I reach age 28 by the time I got out of school, I am so glad it did’t happen that way because these people in this family hated me to the point to where everybody in the family was able to go to school and work and get paid without problems,  I was the one who they picked on. they blamed me for things that the grown adults did before I even thought of being born and I could have died before I was born and what the hell did I have to do with the way I was born and why did them people bring me in this family when they never did want nothing to do with me from the beginning,  all the siblings are dark tan and brown skin and I am the only one in this family who has an ivory white skin and blonde hair and  I really don’t know if they are really my parents or not and why did Carmella Barber pick on me for nothing I did to her and her people pick on me and call me all kinds of racist and derogatory names and dancing eyes and all I ever heard from them family people was Charlene is an ALBINO THIS AND AN ALBINO THAT, Carmella the women who I thought was my nother she did not tell me that girls get their periods every month, she waited until after it happened to me it was wrong that was her responsible to tell me, the people in this family don’t tell me nothing because they don’t want me to know a damn thing just be a dumb bell because they didn’t want me at all and I can tell that. and  Girls should be told about the monthly period or explain it in a way that they can understand so they won’t get shamed and embarrassed and picked on forever and a life time of pure hell for deeds they didn’t do;  them people in this family always told me to dye that SHIT BLACK AND I DYED MY HAIR BROWN FOR SEVERAL YEARS AND I WAS FORCED TO WEAR BROWN WIGS AND I DID MY VERY BEST TO FIT IN THIS DAMN KIND OF FAMILY AND Carmella Barber always hated me because she never wanted me for her child and she isolated me and her sister Clara Pumphrey always controlled me behind my back and she is very dangerously sneaky against me and all of them treated me like a child and they always did meddle in all of my personal business, they did get my business behind my back and they meddled in all of my afairs and all of them people pose a serious threat to my safety and they pose a serious threat to my children’s personal safety and them people man handled me and they man handled my son Alexander so bad to the degree and point where them people damn near killed him in July-28-2008 and what the hell did a man Sherman get in my son Alexander’s face and ask him is he keeping his nose clean look at all the other people in this family they not keeping their nose clean and all them people do is talk about me and my children and pick on me and my kids because them people did not want me in this family well I didn’t tell the so called mother and father to bring me to this family I didn’t just walk in their family that is not fair to me and that is not fair to my children.  It was very wrong for all those grown adults who didn’t want me take me home and they robbed me of my innocence and they robbed me of my dignity and they robbed my children of their persona dignity too.  They way them people always acted towards me and the way they act towards my children they don’t want me to live at all and they don’t want both of my children to live at all either, then why they keep picking on me and why they keep picking on my children all they want to see is blood well a punk hit me in my face and gave me a nose bleeding I was wearing eye glasses he could have put my eyes out for nothing I did, he told me I was adopted  them people pose a serious threat to my personal safety and they pose a serious threat to my children’s personal safety A GUN AND A CANE WAITING. and why did people put bloody chicken bones in my door way and under my window when I was paying rent at 8921 N 91st Street in Milwaukee WI and when I relocated from that address in 2001, less than one month them people suddenly start putting citations on me with a vehicle that I never did operate and I never did drive the Van at all. all of them people did that to me on purpose and they really did do that deliberately and all them people did mary me off right behind my back and for several years them people always treated me like I was lacking in intelligence and like I did not know no better. This don”t make no damn sense at all;  I got taken to a family by people who really never wanted me bring me into a situation that is very dangerous, wrong and very unfair to me and my children; I didn’t really deserve that at all and nobody bothered to explain nothing to me at all  for several years and for that damn length of time and not one single person didn’t even bother to ask no kind of questions of what is the problem and what did I or what did Charlene do if anything at all.  and it is only right,  Hey I am not wrong at all, that is criminal torture and that causes mental abuse and a lot of disstress and heart problems and stress, and STRESS REALLY DO KILL. ESPECIALLY  IT’S NOT MY FAUL AND THE FAMILY DID ABANDONED ME FOR DECADES NOW. I DIDN’T NEED THIS FAMILY FOR MY GUARDIAN THEY DON’T CARE NOTHING ABOUT ME AT ALL AND I AND MY CHILDREN DON’T NEED THESE FAMILY PEOPLE FOR THEIR GUARDIAN EITHER THEM PEOPLE IN THIS DON’T GIVE A DAMN ABOUT MY CHILDREN EITHER. ALL OF THAT IS CAUSED BY VERY HATEFUL, VERY EVIL,MEAN,VERY HOSTILE AND VERY VERY CRUEL PEOPLE, IT IS VERY WRONG FROM THE VERY BEGINNING, TO BLAME AND PICK ON CHILDREN, ESPECIALLY GROWN ADULTS, YOU DON’T BLAME THE CHILD AND YOU DON’T BEAT UP ON THE CHILD, DON’T BEAT THE CHILDREN UP.

May 15, 2012

All I Got Was Everlasting Ass Hoe Treatment

They interrupted my stay in kindergarten class, I ended up around grown adults in an unhealthy enviroment when I should have been in school with other children because I really did need that socialization like all other children, I didn’t deserve to be isolated it was wrong.
I am wondering how many parents don’t want their childern to go to school. especially in nursery and kindergarten elementary school to interact with their peer group and to get that socialization children really need, no child deserves to be criminally isolated it is very wrong from the start to do any child like that and especially for a Black American child and any other minority child and all walks of life as well and Black minorities have to fight for their civil rights to attend school and why would a mother, especially a Black American mother take her child from a kindergarten class and the child don’t have no medical problems and not hospitalized ,why would you do that to the child,TAKE THEM AWAY FOR THAT SOCIALIZATION? I THINK IT IS STRANGE. DON’T YOU ALL. Look what happened to me and what about the plan to keep a child out of school and the child return nearly 3 years later and a plan to make the child repeat the same damn grade for 2 years in a row for example; grade 3rd age 10,
grade 4th age 12
grade 5th age 14
grade 6th age 16
grade 7th age 18
grade 8th age 20
grade 9th age 22
grade 10th age 24
grade 11th age26
grade 12th age 28 and I DID GRADUATE ABOUT ON TIME i AM SO GLAD IT DIDN’T HAPPEN TO ME LIKE THAT IN THE WRONG AND CRIMINAL WAY YOU JUST DON’T HOLD A CHILD BACK LIKE THAT, I did learn about me being held back clean untill I got out of school at age 28 years of age and it was very wrong. HOW DO YOU DO THAT . I AM SO GLAD THAT THE PERSON DIDN’T GET AWAY WITH THAT. YOU DON’T MESS UP YOUR CHILDS EDUCATION, HELP THEM OUT SO THAT THEY CAN HAVE A GOOD FUTURE AND A DECENT LIFE TOO. IT IS ONLY RIGHT AND FAIR TO THE LETTER. They didn’t want me with no kind of future. I can tell. I can see that. I’M NOT A DUMB BELL. GIVE ME A BREAK! I AM A PERSON TOO.

May 13, 2012

A Child Is Born Innocent

Anybody who don’t want a child takes a child home to their family. They are robbing the child’s right of his or her life and their future. They will be very hostile and  very cruel towards that child and no child is beneath  Nobody like that I don’t care who they are. We are people and it doesn’t matter.and Patricia Metcalf Barber waited 13 years before she took me to her house,  there is a sibling rivalry, I am wondering why would you move in that person’s home when they never liked you. she told me When he or she leaves town, you can stay in my place and when I ask how much will she charge me to stay in her house he told me I won’t charge you nothing.   Houses aren’t free to live in somebody got to pay for the house she told me that;  what are they getting at? And she never did  ike me at all. That doesn’t looks safe. It’s a set-up and it’s a trap. but and after she told me I can stay in her house for free.later she sent me a text message telling me House is expensive to up keep and my brother and I don’t have a clue but I had my house first and I had to flee for nothing I did to no one.when I was in Milwaukee Wisconsin I purchased my home first in a neighbor where I didn’t know anyone there and I had to flee because of several fires and other incidents and it was unprovoked and I didn’t provoked that trouble at all, I was minding my very own business there  like I always did every since I was a child who was unwanted and I never lived a normal life no way all because of the hatred and hostility against me and yet it was never even explained to me why and I am wondering how to deal with this, I thought I just ask. so many good things been said already I was just wondering. I NEVER HAD NO FAMILY BACK UP.IT IS AS IF I DONE SOMETHING TO SOMEONE AND OR TOOK SOMETHING. I NEVER HAD NO PEACE. AND I COULDN’T EVEN RELAX AT ALL.

October 7, 2010

AnExcuse To Blame and Punish A Small Child

A Small Child Blamed
They punished me over decades

Dear Your Honor
Please allow me to explain it,
I was born in a seriously dysfunctional family where some people with personal problems that need to be addressed and corrected even before I was born; this problem have gotten me into a world of trouble with some of them people and also I have been having problems from my grandmother’s former husband John McCoy’s grandchildren from the McCoy family and his grandson Ralph James; and Rochelle Saymore and Lauraine Gordan are Ralph James aunts these people are not related to us by blood at all
I was a young adult,age 20 when my grandmother told me about an incident at the time I was only just a 5year old baby girl unable to defend myself; my grandmother Carmella McCoy was baby sitting me for my parents.
Barbara McCoy James had several young babies of her own,including Ralph James, both women left the home there was only just babies neglected and left behind and there was no adult supervision of the babies and there was no one there at all. I was the oldest at that time; I didn’t know anything about it, there was a new born baby boy about a month old named :Markham James, the McCoy family keep blaming me for all of the adult responsibilities; The child was jumped all over and as a result the child died, everybody said why didn’t Charlene stop everybody from jumping all over him at the time. They are still relentlessly angry at me for this. Those two women left the home to get a drink,and they were gone for long hours. I am really tired of paying for something that was not my fault from the beginning. That was the adult responsibility and I am wondering why do they keep blaming me for this. This is not fair to my family and I at all. It is very dangerous to leave children unsupervised and home alone. Also I want to make another point, July 11 the summer of 1967, I was only just 11 years old while I was playing with friends in the neighbor a husky boy ran up to me and he hit me in my face with his fist and gave me a nose bleeding, I was wearing eye glasses and if he broke my glasses he would have put my eyes out. CAN SOMEONE PLEASE HELP ME?
Because of this I am now at a personal lost and is deliverately being financially disadvantaged and where I am living I am having trouble getting a medicaid card of any kind, and I also feel that when I try to get a job, I have problem either I don’t hear from a company or I am suddenly let go and on a short notice and also in 2006 I had a cargiver job and in July 2006 the IRS sent me a notice informing me that someone filed a 1040 form ending December 31-2001 bearing my social security number on it and they picked up my children on the form and they was the head of household and I did not do that to myself. Even though the McCoy family have pictures of us,it make me really wonder what do they keep the pictures for. I personally do appreciate it that they let the photos go and just forget about me and my children and not target and focus on me and my family any more, I am a person too and I don’t have to be one or any of then and I know I am right and I am wondering are Ralph H James and his people going to keep tracking me down like that in that manner? I really do want to be left alone. I really want to know why some of them people don’t want me to go on with my own personal life like I have a right to and why them people don’t want my children to live and go on with their own personal life that they do have a right to live and to be treated like people because that is what they are, they are not objects. I am wondering If I can ever recover from all of this and If I ever buy a new home will somebody destroy my new home again? sometimes I really do wonder that. and also I am wondering If I can ever work on my own personal identity, get paid to work and not be bothered by a safety threat. I am very bothered by that.

I was also abused as a child too and no one don’t even care how I was treated while I was in someone else’s home. I was teased called names and yelled at too. When I asked for a glass of milk, someone put a feeno mint pill in it, I refused to accept it and sometime they would give me beer. When I asked for a glass of water, I was used and targeted for a family scapegoat and everthing that is wrong with this family is all my fault. I was called albino and the white B-word by some of them people. When we were kids Clara taken pictures of us. And the McCoy family have photos of us too I really do feel very bad about the situation. Clara Pumphrey is the aunt who never had no love for me at all and I didn’t do nothing to her; I will just leave her alone altogether, because when I called her to ask to talk with Patsy – Susan Reddings, because I thought maybe by Patsy who worked in the U.S. post office could help me on getting my mail back to normal. But instead Clara gotten very nasty and ballistic, she is always blaming things on me too, she never was anykind of help to me because she always hated me, so she hung up the phone on me and she called back right away I told her I will not bother her anymore and I hung up on her. I only wanted her to call Patsy and give her my phone number so she can call me herself and I was not wrong at all. I already know some people in this family never wanted me with nothing no way. I lost what little I had and my home I was buying with a 30-year mortgage I was there for only 1 years and 10 months a 4 bed room home, in a neighborhood where I didn’t know anyone and I did mind my own business there too.
I been put through several years of just being sabotaged on purpose by several people who personally hated my guts. I am really hurt by all of that kind of hostile treatment against me and against my kids. my children are disabled and I have my own health issues too and we do not need no more unfair criminal abuse from anyone and we just want to be let alone. we want to be treated like people just like everyone else is and I do have my rights to my very own personal privacy like everyone else do and I really do wish that people just respect me and my children’s personal privacy and stop using me and my children like that.
How can I just get them people off of my back and get them out of my hair? I want to get my life back and I want to get my personal freedom back, my family and I really do need some help. Is there anyone out there willing and is able to help us, please?
I don’t understand why she is so full of hatred against me and against my children who never did nothing to her. I just don’t understand that. everyone thinks she is so jealous and is very controlling. Her son is no longer here because he has committed suicide. I didn’t have nothing to do with that. I really wonder that do she really got something against me, who ever have something against me, I have a right to know what it is. I am a person just like everybody else is. Not different from the rest.
I still have not forgotten in the summer of 1971, I was a very decent young lady, while we were visiting a relative Clara ask me Charlene are you going to bend over and let somebody get it so you can have a baby that look just like you, something about that made me feel very uneasy and September 16-1972 someone tried to sexually assault me while I was on my way going to high school and this was in the broad day light.about 10am in the morning time.
Ralph James and his brothers were taken away from their mother and placed in foster care untill 18 years of age, my family and I never had anything to do them, and we did not know where they lived but one day Ralph James suddenly showed up at our home while I was living at home with my parents and he never said what he really wanted.

I was pretty much close to home, and I did graduate from high school.that year 1976, and 3 of us was still living at home and suddenly one day Clara the aunt called our parents for only me and my brother who is mentally ill to spend 2 weeks in her home, I never knew what she really wanted me for; she only talked to my parent. not me and I was an adult age 20 years and after I was there she asked me Charlene don’t you feel sorry for yourself, I told her no I don’t feel sorry for myself, she kept picking on me I could see that and she did ask me in front of a women neighbor do you think I am better than your parents, and do you like me better than your mother and father? and when I didn’t give her the right answer that she wanted to hear she did turn on me, she was very angry and she started picking a nasty fight with me in her house.she argued and she said she was going to beat my ass and she tried to hit me in my face and she told me what I need was a big black private, her son at the time came out of his bedroom and taken me to his bedroom untill the coast was clear it was summer time,dark outside and it was raining, and I left out her front door and I never went back again, we were out of there in 3 days.
I am wondering how can I get te help and support I really need because I can not go it alone.
Please help me out somebody.

My children and I have been personally hurt and injured and I don’t want anyone to think I am anti social because I am not like that and I can’t take that no more than anyone else can.
I am tired of this use and abuse crap altogether.I have been criminally abused, followed and harrassed by them over the decade, and I really want to know what all is so wrong with me in the first place. that justified this kind of hostile hatered against me and against my children?. Child welfare people suddenly showed up at my door, this
happened nearly a dozen years between 1990 through 2002. 1990 – First time, 1997 – Again, 2002 – Repeatedly. And between that time, this is not no co-incident, someone must know too much about me and somebody don’t like me personally; and they also don’t want me to have my own kids; it is jealousy and vendetta; these are the same people who have been targetting me and focusing on me for a dangerous excuse just to get back at me and hurt my kids who didn’t do nothing to them people. I know what I am talking about, my children never did need any protection away from me. I was the one who really need the protection away from them people and over the years and decades; these are the same people in the family who has deprived me over the years, and they never wanted me to have nothing no way. they are all in my way, I am not in their way, no I am not. well I didn’t do this to myself, nobody is going to hurt themselves no kind of way. I don’t hate myself like that, no I don’t. But, I am very tired of people thinking that what is wrong with me and everthing else is my fault, (otherwise blamed) that is too petty and this is downright uncivilized and that’s too much to put on me. That makes me wonder how long is this going to go on, it has been far more than my lifetime over. I been robbed of my childhood and my kids were robbed of their own childhood too, because people were taking unfair advantages of me first and they are treating my kids the same way too. I had to pull my children from a day program for their safety. Some of them people act like they own me like a possession and they really do make me feel I am really being hijacked (under somebody’s control), then why won’t they just leave me alone and leave my kids alone? That is not right. When my son Alexander was in Warren Park, he mysteriously gotten away from there on July 28, 2008, and ended up in a hospital and he was not looking so good at all. He was not eating, not drinking any fluids, his teeth was clenched (jaws is jammed). He would not talk to me at all, and his eyes was rolled back to his head. I did see that, he was in Illinois Masonic Hospital and he was in several hospitals as a result of that are there were bruises, scars and holes poked in his legs, I didn’t do that my own son, that happened when he was suddenly in somebody else place and care. (Hospital and Nursing Home) he was not at home when this occurred to him and not no one didn’t even talk to me, he had to be put on life support and a feeding tube. I will never ever forget that all the pure hatred and hell that people put me and my kids through over the years, they blamed me since I was only a 5 year old baby girl and for grown people responsbilities? I do know my children and I can’t even get a break from any of this abuse and I am very concerned for our safety.
I really hate to bother you guys with this but I been put through a great deal of hurt and sorrow and they nearly did cost me a nervous break as a result of this kind of trauma I am trying to be as strong as possible because I have both of my children Alexander and Vincent to think about and my husband to think about too, although I have been somewhat secluded from out side, I am not an antisocial person at all, and again I did not mean any harm by just comfiding in someone.
sincerely
Charlene

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