I still have not forgotten in the summer of 1971, I was a very decent young lady a 15 year old child, while we were visiting a relative the grandmother on the mother side of the family Clara ask me Charlene are you going to bend over and let somebody get it so you can have a baby that look just like you, somethng about that made me feel very uneasy; and 13 months later on September 16-1972 someone tried to sexually assault me while I was on my way going to high school and this was in the broad day light about 10 am in the morning time. I was force to keep going to the same high school on the south side of Chicago Clara sister Carmella did not do nothing when all them kids at that was picking on me for nothing and some of them kids were trying to trip me down and some of them tried to push me down the stairs at that Chicago public high school and I could not walk the halls without some students laughing and snickering saying there she go is that your sister, at the time nobody did not tell me Nelson was my guardian there was not nothing wrong with me because I had Albinism I just was not wanted and I did not fit in their family that is what that was and they all did talk about me right behind my back and I was born and innocent baby like all other babies who are born innocent and what the grown ups do that is between them. I really do wish they kept me out of it altogether.
I am wondering why did everybody deliberately forget the biology of a male and a female and all it took was a man to zip his pants down and a women to lift up her skirt and make a child and to not want the child and put every blame on a child is very wrong and criminal and have a baby and to not want the child is very wrong and all children need uncondictioal love and respect and a right to keep their personal dignity the way they have a right to and they took it all away from me from the very beginning of my life at the time I didn’t even know I was in the world in 1956 and why would a man deny a child is his anyway and why did the women who I thought was my mother turned on me too. and the siblings rejected me too. they stalked me on my telephone for several years and they always acted like I wasn’t apart of the family, they always looked very down on me and they treated me like an outcast and an outsider and they are very ashamed of, the mother continues to isolate me from other like she always did and she never wanted me to work and earn my own money and money I don’t even have because of all violence and unprovoked abuses I been put througt for several years that is not no co-incident because it all began ever since I was small and I grew up being so afraid I also was vey shy and I became very withdrawn because of the worst than harsh abused and the social security number that I have did always caused me serious disadvantages and they still treat me like a child and they still keep following me every where I like I am not lying about and when the cowards scared me right out of Milwaukee, Wisconsin I fled Miss and I had ti keave and ended back in the parents house ,the mother told me I will never make the money Nelson make and I lost my supplemental income because my chldren are getting money from their father that is what she told me, I did not tell her that because I always knew the social security did not bother a woman who like myself I was not married to my childrens father and I was not entitled to that income. and I didn’t tell her that is the reason why I lost my SSI, no I didn’t say that at all. because the was not the case and I applied for a medicaid card several times and I was told I was not able to get a card and I don’t work and I don’t have no kind of income and this family do not support me financially at all and they are not my guardian they are not supposed to be my guardian at all and they don’t supposed to be my children’s guardian at all it is very wrong and them people are very unreliable people. I DIDN’T NEED NO DAMN GUARDIAN THERE WAS NOT ANYTHING WRONG WITH ME AND I WAS NOT LACKING IN ANY INTELLIGENCE AT ALL, THEY DID THAT SHIT BECAUSE THEY REALLY HATED ME AND THE FAMIILY PEOPLE TRIED TO TAKE MY CHILDREN AWAY FROM ME, THEY DIDN’T HAVE NO DAMN RIGHT TO STEAL MY CHILDREN I WAS NOT AN UNFIT MOTHER LIKE THE ONE I HAD. A GUARDIAN IS NOT NECESSARY IF THE CHILD IS NOT SEVERELY DISABLED,THEY DID THAT BECAUSE I GOT ALBINISM AND I AM NOT WANTED BY THIS FAMILY AT ALL. THEM PEOPLE IN THIS FAMILY THEY NEVER DID WANT ME IN THIS FAMILY AND THEY STILL DON’T WANT ME IN THEIR FAMILY, WELL I DID NOT TELL THEM TO TAKE ME TO THEIR FAMILY I DIDN’T TELL THEM PEOPLE TO TAKE ME HOME AND NOTHING WAS NOT MY S. THAT IS BS.
I been abused so badly they made me have very bad nerves and I NEARLY HAD A NERVOUS BREAK DOWN BECAUSE OF, ALL THE ABUSE I BEEN THROUGH ON PURPOSE AND IT IS VERY DELIBERATE FOR NOTHING I EVEN DID TO ANYBODY IN THE FAMILY AND I DID SUFFER IN SILENCE FOR MANY YEARS AND I DID SUFFER IN SILENCE FOR DECADES AND I FEEL LIKE A HOSTAGE LIKE THAT.AND I CAN GET EASILY STARTLED BECAUSE OF IT.
my grandmother told me Clara Pumphrey was married to a man named Willie and when he was killed in a hotel room,she tried to get his benefits and she could not get his benefits because he was married already to someone else legally a bigamy in the 1955-1956 the grandmother told me she had to put Clara in a mental institution and that was not my fault either, I didn’t have nothing to do with that at all. I don’t apreciate being used for nobody’s damn scapegoate that is very dangerous.
this is nothing but unprovoked abuse and unjustified punishment from the start, then why noone never even bothered to tell me why and not one single person even bothered to tell me the truth and I didn’t deserve to be rejected,blamed and punished for me being born with albinism and what about when I was born an innocent baby like all other babies well the father turned his back on me and he was not emotionally available for me to the point to where I ended up looking for DADDY and my children’s father is a daddy figure by more than 30 years my age and that was because I needed LOVE NOT HATRED; they just punished me and they watched me suffer for the deeds that I did not do. I was not wanted by this family at all; then why was I treated very differently and cruely by the family and every thing is my S from the start and was picked on for several years and they made fun of me and they treated my children the same way too, and my son Alexander was so man handled by them people ,they nearly killed him and I had to take my son Vincent from a program because they picked on him too and his files were missing from a day program, there was a safety concern for all 3 of us. and for several years the gossip about me was so serious to the point to where it has caused me great reputational harm and to the point to when I want to communicate and work with other people I am greatly ignored to where a lot of people don’t seem to care to understand and to listen to what I am trying to explain. Every body treated me like a retarded child and a little girl and every body all up in my personal business and all up in my personal life . they don’t even accept me as one of their own relative and I can see that. I can tell, I am not no dumb person, I’m not like that and I was abused so badly I had night mares, I even had a low self esteem because of the derogatory and racist name calling that hurted me and for years they called me that, well that was not my fault, I was born with Albinism and that is an inherited genetic condiction and that is not my fault at all, and some of them people said that is not in the family and that’s not my fault either; I really do wish that the people who never wanted me in the first place just leave me alone altogether and just leave my kids alone all every body did was just use me and my children and they always did just walk all over me and my children and them people never had no love for me no way.that because I was notthing to them people and my children are not nothing to them people either and what they think of me, them people think the same way about my kid ,they don’t have any kind of love for my children because my children are nothing to them people. I am wondering why when I needed to be removed from the home for my own protection and my safety why no body came to remove me from the that family that was not right and that is not fair to me. I gotten blamed,abandoned,punished and bullied and the people on Carmella Barber the mother side of the family,they never taken the time with me and the people on Nelson the father side of the family, they never taken the time with me either; It was not my fault and it was not right for them people to just use me for their excuse. I never even lived a normal life. How can anybody have a normal child hood,adult hood and future, with my freedom being very restricted. and I did go to a medical front office training school program and that was sabotaged on me too,things got all changed around. I did lose the SSI income in September 1997 and I was not able to ever get back on it no matter what. and I came back to Chicago Illinois in spring 2003 and I did apply for a medicaid card and they never did give any. and I did apply again in 2011 the letter came back,it said I was not eligible for any,cash assistance,SNAP food stamps and no medical card at all and I don’t even work because I am very sick right now and I have health issues and I need help and no one is willing to help me out; It is a darn crying shame I don’t have a family that I can trust, my health is being neglected I did a lot of volunteer work and unpaid work I tried to help the community in Milwaukee,WI the best way that I could but I should have been help too many years ago and I gave selflessly far too much of my time to others and for others but I am wondering can anybody volunteer their time to help me out please I AM CRYING OUT FOR HELP can anybody please help me out and it is a crying shame because I had no steady income since I lost my suppmental income in September 1997 and the hatred against me really did put me at a total lost and I nearly lost one of my children and the parent don’t talk to me and the siblings don’t want nothing to do with me either, that is the whole family. I don’t feel really confortable with them no way because they never did approve of me from the beginning and so it is best for me to just stay out of their way. it is really rough on me and this is not too good. I really do need to get a break and a make over. They sneaked and married me off behind my back and changed birth dates on me and they changed birth dates on my children,they are really very very hateful to me and my children; they NEVER DID HAVE NO KIND OF MERCY ON ME AT ALL AND THEY DON’T HAVE NO KIND OF MERCY ON MY CHILDREN AT ALL EITHER NO THEM PEOPLE IN THIS FAMILY DON’T. NO THEY DON’T.
The parents who took me home to this family should have left me behind and gave me a first and second of life so that I can live like a human being and hope for the best for me and for my sake and to allow me to receive the unconditional love and support that every child really do need and so that I may have a future and not have my freedom restricted, and so that I would not have been played with like a toy and an object, them people toyed with my life, I suffered many losses and I nearly lost one of my children, them people never had no kind of love for me at all because I was not nothing to them people. They watched have my children behind my back just like you watch an animal give birth on the Discovery channel and over the years I gotten labeled like an object and I was chosen right behind my back and they did put tracking numbers on me from the start, such as 7,11,13,25,28,49,65 and 666 and I did see that and they been acting hostile and very superstitious about me and towards me and Carmella side of the family is from New Orleans LA. I am not trying to be funny because something is serious wrong somewhere. And why do got enemies I did not make and I did not provoke it no I did not do that and how did I get enemies that I didn’t know nothing about and they didn’t know nothing about either, that’s because somebody who don’t like been gossiping about me and they slandered me and they are liable to the letter and everybody do think I am a dumb bell and that I am lacking in intelligence, I am not a retarded person, I am not like that at all and all everybody did was just walked all over me and they stepped all over me and full of pure hatred, I never did know nothing about love because the hatred they got against me that was not no kind of love for me at all. I know the difference between love and hatred.
I am wondering why would a woman who don’t really want a child take child home to the family and all at the same time the husband flat out denied the child is his and then the father and the child never did get along and they never did see eye to eye at all and I was always afraid that man ; when he pulls up in the car. I would go straight to my bedroom so that I wouldn’t get in trouble with him. And he did make me develop very bad nerves and then her son named Tyrone Barber use to sneak up behind me and groped me he used to grab and squeeze both of my personal right and left breast calling them knobs and at the same time it happened more than once and I did tell Carmella Barber that yes I did tell her that. I was watching TV the movie was in black and white, I sat down on the sofa he put his fingers in my behind. I jumped up and I told him to stop! I yelled at him. Years later Tyrone Barber was arrested in Chicago, IL and he was charged with Pedophilia and he was registered with the state of Illinois.
Tyrone Barber pulled me in the wagon and he turned it over on me he made me hit my head on the brick wall outside of the house and I got a large bump on my face right in the middle of my face and I was crying because I got hurt and I was in pain and I never did forget that at all. Another problem I had is I was much too nice to people and they took me for a dumb ass instead and I should have been raised somewhere else. You don’t tread somebody who have albinism like a dumb ass, ignorance do kill. And it is wrong.
She deliberately isolated me and I don’t have any friends and I got hurt by everything. I got taken out of I In September 1961 at 5 year of age, I started kindergarten class and I didn’t get to finish. And when I return to school at age 7½ years old, that was 6 month just before I turned 8 years old and age 10, I got transferred to another school and entered a 3rd grade class and then I got bullied and picked on and targeted. I was targeted in elementary and high schools. And they still treated me like a child who does not know any better. And I’m still living, my life is not normal even today. I suffered depression for several years. It was situational depression because of family abuse I was put through and the family still turns their back on me. And I also suffer nightmares. I suffered years of child abuse and child neglect. I was hurt by everything from the start. Why do people listen to everybody else. And why do people ignore me; people always been ignoring me for far too many years and for far too long and for that length of time I don’t want to live like this, This is not the way for me to live. This is not nothing can’t support your own self that don’t make no kind of sense at all; no it don’t.