I DID NOT HAVE MY PERSONAL FREEDOM AT ALL

The family people never accepted me in their family from the very beginning and they never welcomed me at all, instead they treated me like an albino gorilla that belong in a zoo cage, I was really hurt by criminal dirt bag ugly treatment, they wouldn’t let me live. Several years of my life was really wasted from being psychologically and mentally abused and physically abused by people who should not have dragged me in their damn family and then pick on me and treat me like shit I didn’t walk in their damn family, I got hurt by everything. If anybody don’t believe me that is because it didn’t happen to them at all and child abuse of any form is wrong and is very criminal and the child is at the parents mercy and if that child is really not wanted the child will not be safe at all in that family and don’t let no one in the family ever be on that child side they will get turned against too by several family members they will do it; they will be against yours children just like the family in this family was already against my kids just before they was born and they tried to kidnap my kids like they kidnapped me in this family this is not my family. I want to let the hell alone.
All I got was pure conflicts from these people in this family; when I was born an innocent baby girl like all other babies I was not no different no matter what I was and what I had. I was told the man said I was not his baby, he denied me and he turn his back on me; he walked out of hospital, he could not adapt to me and he was not emotionally available for me. and he really did make me extremely nervous to the point to where my NERVES NEARLY MADE A NERVOUS WRECK AND SOMETIMES I WOULD BREAK OUT WITH NERVE WEPS, I WAS A SICK CHILD FROM THE VERY START AND I GREW UP A VERY SCARED AND A VERY NERVOUS CHILD; because of all of the rejection ,abuse. the use and the abuse and the torture that I suffered and the derogatory name callings I was very hurt by; names like: ALNINO, WHITE GIRL,YELLOW GAL,WHITE HONKY, DANCING EYES, YELLOW BITCHES and WHITE BITCHES TOO. I got picked on and bullied at the grade school and the high school too and I had more than the worst luck with the family I did not ask to be taken ,it was very wrong from the start. The people on the mother side they never took the time with me and the people on the father side they never took the time with me either; and I really do wish I was not taken there at all, but I didn’t have any control, that caused me to look for daddy and a father figure. The mother blamed everything on me to the point to where the whole family never did accept me as a family member. Instead they treated me like an outcast, an outside an outside Bitch. They treated me like an animal and breeder, they didn’t treat me like a person and they act like my children are not my children, they are treating me like I am not my kids mother they treat my kids like they are their kids. NO THEY ARE NOT THEIR KIDS. Them people don’t give a damn about me and my children at all. While I was in the home being abused; them people always threatened to take me to a counselor, a psychiatrist to find out if I am crazy or not. I haven’t done nothing to anyone. I was not a threat to nobody; and not even to myself and I was not a threat to the community at large; I AM THE ONE WHO IS NOT SAFE. Hey I didn’t even know I was in the world yet; I am not responsible for having albinism and I was NOT THIS FAMILY’S CURSE,THEY JUST DIDN’T WANT ME IN THEIR FAMILY AT ALL; I’m not dumb and I’m not stupid, then why do Carmella Barber who was supposed be a mother to me. SHE HATES ME SO MUCH and I didn’t do anything to her and she always blamed and fault me for her husband and her mother in law for hating her because her mother in law thought she was an albino and I was born with this genetic condition which I was not responsible for.THEY DEHUMANIZED ME from the very start and for nothing that I done to any of them peope FOR NOTHING; SHE told me her mother in law tried to get her killed because of ME that was not my fault; They didn’t have to take me to their family, Them people should not have taken me to their family at all, THEY SHOULD HAVE LEFT ME BEHIND AND LET ME ALONE;

4 Comments to “I DID NOT HAVE MY PERSONAL FREEDOM AT ALL”

  1. i hope you are doing ok, please pray for peace in your heart. God Has Not Forgotten everything you’ve been through, vengeance is His.

  2. Please Charl, let me know if you have gotten any assistance yet.

    • Hi Kelly I am ready to leave Chicago Illinois because I don’t fit in and nobody here in Chicago Illinois will not bother to help me with the terrible child abuse situation that has started by both parents who denied as their child from birth How can I find out if the mother and father have a legal guardianship over me because on my high school transcrips on the line where it ask for mother’s name Carmella Barber name is on that line and the line where it ask for mother’s maiden name Carmella Pumphrey is on that line. and on the line where it asked for the father’s name the line is left blank. and on the line where it asked for guardian’s name Nelson Barber name is on that line, I am wondering is there a way I can really find out if any body is my guardian or not and is anybody guardian to my children yes or no behind my back as well.,I really do want to know I got a right to know. How can I really find out because them people never was honest with me and the mother taken me out of kindergarten class where children need that socialization and I never had a chance to complete kindergarten at all and I was 7½ years old and I was nearly age 8 years old, when I returned to school and I was never ill and I was not in no hospital and I am wondering why did the mother tell me when I was a 19 year old grown woman Nelson still have jurish diction over you, yes she did tell me that, and I got picked on in the home, I got picked on in elementary and I got picked on in high school and I couldn’t walk the high school halls without hearing the students saying there she go IS THAT YOUR SISTER ? AND THEY LAUGHT AND SNICKER AT ME SOMETHING IS VERY WRONG SOMEWHERE THE FAMILY PEOPLE GOT FAR TOO DAMN MUCH VENEMOUS HATRED AGAINST ME AND THEY DID SET ME UP FOR SEVERAL YEARS OF UNPROVOKED ABUSE AND UNPROVOKED TORTURE I am not lying about thatl.and they took control of my personal life and my person business these people are very hostile and they always dictated to me what to do. I am wondering How did I get a July-28-1969 birth date on my medical records and that is not my birth date; my birth date is April-2-1956 they kicked me back 13 years of my life and this is very dangerous and is very criminal this caused lives and they deliberately messed up my children’s medical records the same way too.I am very tired of all ot this for nothing I did not do and I am still at a lost BECAUSE I WAS NOT WANTED AND THE MOTHER STOPPED TALKING TO ME ALTOGETHER SHE TOLD PEOPLE IF I CALL HER AND SHE SEE MY NUMBER AND NAME ON HER CALLER ID SHE WILL NOT ANSWER THE TELEPHONE AND THE SO CALLED MOTHER ALWAYS OVER BEARINGLY PEST ME ABOUT LIFE INSURANCE WHAT SHE TAKE TO THE FAMILY FOR WHEN SHE DIDN’T WANT ME. I CAN’T STOMACH THIS ANYMORE. IT IS NOT FAIR FOR ME TO BE BOTHERED LIKE THAT IT IS VERY WRONG AND THEY DID ALWAYS CALL ME CRAZY AND THEY NEVER DID STOP CALLING ME THAT AND THEY DID THREATENED TO PUT ME IN AN ODDY HOME FOR BAD GIRLS AND PUT ME IN A MENTAL INSTITUTION AND I DID NOT POSE NO THREAT TO ANYONE IN THE HOME AND NOT EVEN IN THE COMMUNITY AND I COULD NEVER LIVE IN THIS FAMILY WITH NO PEACE AND I AM TAKING MEDICATION SO THAT I WON’T HAVE A HEART ATTACK OR A STROKE, I wasn’t allowed to be myself, I was told to dye my hair black by family people, and I was forced to dye my hair brown and to wear brown wigs and they always did teach me that something was always wrong with me just because I was born with a genetic inherrited condiction called Albinism. I got denied and rejected, I was teased,called derogatory racist names.abandoned by family.punished and bullied and the people on the mother side of the family they never took the time with me and the people on the father side of the family they never took the time with me either I AM AN ABANDONED ADULT CHILD WITHOUT NIO RESOURCES AND WITHOUT NO FAMILY AND NO SUPPORT AT ALL AND NOT FROM ONE SINGLE PERSON AT ALL with several million people in the country, why no one helped me out the situation that was not my fault from the beginning. Yes several years ago and I am still getting left overs from the past nothing didn’t change it gotten much worst to the point to where I can’t support myself, and even thought I had been unable to obtain paid work because someone was in the way and I still can’t even get medical card and I have no kind of income at all.I did apply for benefits,the state will not approve it and I have not been able to get back on Supplemental Income and I lost that in 1997 and I tried to at least get it back several time but it was much too stressful,
      I am really tired of being used and tortured by a family who wanted me from the beginning.

      Somebody should have helped me several years ago and removed me from Carmella Barber and Nelson Barber, I should have been raised in someone else’s house. All everybody is doing is using me for the money and they won’t let me get no money of my very own I got to have income to live on too. I got right to have money and money they won’t let me have THE FAMILY PEOPLE DEHUMANIZED ME DECADES AGO, THE FAMILY PEOPLE DEHUMANIZED BOTH MY SONS TOO THAT IS WHY MY KIDS AND I DON’T HAVE ANYTHING.

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