Archive for August, 2012

August 14, 2012

I DID NOT HAVE MY PERSONAL FREEDOM AT ALL

The family people never accepted me in their family from the very beginning and they never welcomed me at all, instead they treated me like an albino gorilla that belong in a zoo cage, I was really hurt by criminal dirt bag ugly treatment, they wouldn’t let me live. Several years of my life was really wasted from being psychologically and mentally abused and physically abused by people who should not have dragged me in their damn family and then pick on me and treat me like shit I didn’t walk in their damn family, I got hurt by everything. If anybody don’t believe me that is because it didn’t happen to them at all and child abuse of any form is wrong and is very criminal and the child is at the parents mercy and if that child is really not wanted the child will not be safe at all in that family and don’t let no one in the family ever be on that child side they will get turned against too by several family members they will do it; they will be against yours children just like the family in this family was already against my kids just before they was born and they tried to kidnap my kids like they kidnapped me in this family this is not my family. I want to let the hell alone.
All I got was pure conflicts from these people in this family; when I was born an innocent baby girl like all other babies I was not no different no matter what I was and what I had. I was told the man said I was not his baby, he denied me and he turn his back on me; he walked out of hospital, he could not adapt to me and he was not emotionally available for me. and he really did make me extremely nervous to the point to where my NERVES NEARLY MADE A NERVOUS WRECK AND SOMETIMES I WOULD BREAK OUT WITH NERVE WEPS, I WAS A SICK CHILD FROM THE VERY START AND I GREW UP A VERY SCARED AND A VERY NERVOUS CHILD; because of all of the rejection ,abuse. the use and the abuse and the torture that I suffered and the derogatory name callings I was very hurt by; names like: ALNINO, WHITE GIRL,YELLOW GAL,WHITE HONKY, DANCING EYES, YELLOW BITCHES and WHITE BITCHES TOO. I got picked on and bullied at the grade school and the high school too and I had more than the worst luck with the family I did not ask to be taken ,it was very wrong from the start. The people on the mother side they never took the time with me and the people on the father side they never took the time with me either; and I really do wish I was not taken there at all, but I didn’t have any control, that caused me to look for daddy and a father figure. The mother blamed everything on me to the point to where the whole family never did accept me as a family member. Instead they treated me like an outcast, an outside an outside Bitch. They treated me like an animal and breeder, they didn’t treat me like a person and they act like my children are not my children, they are treating me like I am not my kids mother they treat my kids like they are their kids. NO THEY ARE NOT THEIR KIDS. Them people don’t give a damn about me and my children at all. While I was in the home being abused; them people always threatened to take me to a counselor, a psychiatrist to find out if I am crazy or not. I haven’t done nothing to anyone. I was not a threat to nobody; and not even to myself and I was not a threat to the community at large; I AM THE ONE WHO IS NOT SAFE. Hey I didn’t even know I was in the world yet; I am not responsible for having albinism and I was NOT THIS FAMILY’S CURSE,THEY JUST DIDN’T WANT ME IN THEIR FAMILY AT ALL; I’m not dumb and I’m not stupid, then why do Carmella Barber who was supposed be a mother to me. SHE HATES ME SO MUCH and I didn’t do anything to her and she always blamed and fault me for her husband and her mother in law for hating her because her mother in law thought she was an albino and I was born with this genetic condition which I was not responsible for.THEY DEHUMANIZED ME from the very start and for nothing that I done to any of them peope FOR NOTHING; SHE told me her mother in law tried to get her killed because of ME that was not my fault; They didn’t have to take me to their family, Them people should not have taken me to their family at all, THEY SHOULD HAVE LEFT ME BEHIND AND LET ME ALONE;

August 8, 2012

THEY TOOK ME TO THE WRONG FAMILY,THEY TOYED WITH MY LIFE

I am wondering why did everybody deliberately forget the biology of a male and a female and all it took was a man to zip his pants down and a women to lift up her skirt and make a child and to not want the child and put every blame on a child is very wrong and criminal and have a baby and to not want the child is very wrong and all children need uncondictioal love and respect and a right to keep their personal dignity the way they have a right to and they took it all away from me from the very beginning of my life at the time I didn’t even know I was in the world in 1956 and why would a man deny a child is his anyway and why did the women who I thought was my mother turned on me too. and the siblings rejected me too. they stalked me on my telephone for several years and they always acted like I wasn’t apart of the family, they always looked very down on me and they treated  me like an outcast and an outsider and they are very ashamed of, the mother continues to isolate me from other like she always did and she never wanted me to work and earn my own money and money I don’t even have because of all violence and unprovoked abuses I been put througt for several years that is not no co-incident because it all began ever since I was small and I grew up being so afraid I also was vey shy and I became very withdrawn because of the worst than harsh abused and the social security number that I have did always caused me serious disadvantages and they still treat me like a child and they still keep following me every where I like I am not lying about and when the cowards scared me right out of Milwaukee, Wisconsin I fled Miss and I had ti keave and ended back in the parents house ,the mother told me I will never make the money Nelson make and I lost my supplemental income because my chldren are getting money from their father that is what she told me, I did not tell her that  because I always knew the social security did not bother a woman who like myself I was not married to my childrens father and I was not entitled to that income. and I didn’t tell her that is the reason why I lost my SSI, no I didn’t say that at all. because the was not the case and I applied for a medicaid card several times and I was told I was not able to get a card and I don’t work and I don’t have no kind of income and this family do not support me financially at all and they are not my guardian they are not supposed to be my guardian at all and they don’t supposed to be my children’s guardian at all it is very wrong and them people are very unreliable people. I DIDN’T NEED NO DAMN GUARDIAN THERE WAS NOT ANYTHING WRONG WITH ME AND I WAS NOT LACKING IN ANY INTELLIGENCE AT ALL, THEY DID THAT SHIT BECAUSE THEY REALLY HATED ME AND THE  FAMIILY PEOPLE TRIED TO TAKE MY CHILDREN AWAY FROM ME, THEY DIDN’T HAVE NO DAMN RIGHT TO STEAL MY CHILDREN I WAS NOT AN UNFIT MOTHER LIKE THE ONE I HAD. A GUARDIAN IS NOT NECESSARY IF THE CHILD IS NOT SEVERELY DISABLED,THEY DID THAT BECAUSE I GOT ALBINISM AND I AM NOT WANTED BY THIS FAMILY AT ALL. THEM PEOPLE IN THIS FAMILY THEY NEVER DID WANT ME IN THIS FAMILY AND THEY STILL DON’T WANT ME IN THEIR FAMILY, WELL I DID NOT TELL THEM TO TAKE ME TO THEIR FAMILY I DIDN’T TELL THEM PEOPLE TO TAKE ME HOME AND NOTHING WAS NOT MY S. THAT IS BS.

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