I been abused so badly they made me have very bad nerves and I NEARLY HAD A NERVOUS BREAK DOWN BECAUSE OF, ALL THE ABUSE I BEEN THROUGH ON PURPOSE AND IT IS VERY DELIBERATE FOR NOTHING I EVEN DID TO ANYBODY IN THE FAMILY AND I DID SUFFER IN SILENCE FOR MANY YEARS AND I DID SUFFER IN SILENCE FOR DECADES AND I FEEL LIKE A HOSTAGE LIKE THAT.AND I CAN GET EASILY STARTLED BECAUSE OF IT.